On Blogging and Being Anonymous

Well, it's been over 5 months since I wrote my first blog post. How time flies eh? :-)) Looking back at what I've written all this time, I can't honestly tell if my mastery on of the English language has improved or otherwise ("mastery 'on' English"? *grimace* See what I mean? LOLs..! Anthony, thanks man :) ). Hmm.. perhaps not. If you've noticed, there ARE some bahasa rojak here. Some??? Excuse me, I meant to say I used A LOT of bahasa rojak ;)

When I think about blogs and bloggers, one thought keeps popping up in my head - the preference of bloggers to remain anonymous. And to keep their friends / families / colleagues from discovering / reading the posts that these bloggers write.

I, for one, am guilty of such. Not all of my close friends (yes, The Girls) know the existence of this blog. Somehow, I just can't open my mouth and tell them I have a blog. I wonder if they have an idea what a blog is. Eh, no, I'm not underestimating anyone. 5-6 months ago I found out about blogging from Sheils - some people are already into blogging 2-3 years ago! :-Þ And about a month ago I explained to Rozy about blog. So I'm not surprised if some people have never heard about blogging.

To claim total anonymity wouldn't hold true, as Sheils and Darls know the existence of this blog. Err, my parents know about these posts too. (Hahahahha... oi, don't look so shocked!). And my brother (I've linked to his page too). And my sister. LOLs.. I don't know when was the last time my family read about the things I wrote, perhaps 2-3 weeks ago :)
Oh yes, Mak was grinning away when she read one of Dina Zaman's posts, can't recall which one though. She said Dina writes funny, and very good too :-))

Initially I have no intention to reveal my blogsite to my parents, but after about 2-3 months writing, I felt: Why shouldn't I tell them? What HAVE I written here that's too secretive to let them read?

I remember talking to a friend online (yes, he reads my posts too, once a while), and I asked him: "You know I have a blog, right?"
Him: "Yes"
Me: "Is it bad of me NOT to tell my close friends about my blog?"
He said (ok I don't recall his exact words! I'm forgetful, forgive me):
"Maybe, maybe not. Depends lah. You got kutuk2 your friends in your blog?"

Well. Now that he mentioned that... there are some people who erm, got kutuk-ed (OMG, definitely NO improvement in English here, Yam!). Hehehhe..

Hmm... so probably that's the main reason I'm keeping my lips sealed about my blog.

My blog is a place for me to write. For sometimes words just fail me verbally. I would resort to my blog to let things out of my chest. In my blogs, I can write and rewrite things to my liking.
Sometimes, when talking, there might be things I don't explain very well. I'm not THAT eloquent with words - well, maybe not when talking eh.

So I write. I blog.
Sometimes the things I'm not happy with I just can't say it outright to the people concerned. Need some time to compose my thoughts. And hence, the blog.
Sometimes when I'm pissed off at the Boss or the icky guy a.k.a the parrot or anyone at work, I turn to my blog and write.
Sometimes when I'm happy and I want to share my mood with the world, I blog too. Spread the joy, eh?
Sometimes when I'm too chocked with emotions and words simply refuse to come out of my mouth, I blog.
Sometimes when I'd feel frustrated with the ways of the world, *tap tap tap click tap tap click* goes the sound of the keyboard - that's me blogging away.

All this time, I didn't feel like telling some of my friends about this side of myself. Perhaps I wasn't ready to let them in on some secrets? (Eh, ada secrets ke?) I don't know lah.

But yesterday afternoon, I've almost decided (almost jer tau!) that I'm gonna tell a few close friends about my blog. Hehehe.. this (almost) decision came after thinking about it for a few weeks. Such life-altering decision eh?

*sigh*

I guess this blog is another side of me. For the moment, let's just keep it our little secret, OK?