First Cut Is The Deepest

Watched One Tree Hill last night.
Fell in love with this song, sung by the wonderful Sheryl Crow.

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First Cut Is The Deepest - Sheryl Crow

I would've given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein' lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin me, he's worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure gonna give you a try
Cause if you want I'll try to love again (tryy)
Baby I'll try to love again but I know (o-oh)

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein' lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin' me, he's worst
(Guitar solo)

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
Cause if you want I'll try to love again (try to love again)
Baby I'll try to love again but I know (o-o-oh)

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin me he's worst(o-o-oh)

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
Try to love again

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Now I cannot get the chorus out of my head...

You sweet talker you!

Found this quiz on Blogthings. hehe...

Your Seduction Style: Sweet Talker

Your seduction technique can be summed up with "charm" You know that if you have the chance to talk to someone... Well, you won't be talking for long! ;-) You're great at telling potential lovers what they want to hear. Partially, because you're a great reflective listener and good at complementing. The other part of your formula? Focusing your conversation completely on the other person. Your "sweet talking" ways have taken you far in romance - and in life. You can finess your way through any difficult situation, with a smile on your face. Speeding tickets, job interviews... bring it on! You truly live a *charmed life*

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

(What are you waiting for? Take the test!)

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Macam real jer.. hahahhahah!

Anyone who knows me will know better.

I'm no sweet talker, kan? Kan?

Oii! I'm NOT laaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!

Helppp!!

HELPPPP...!!

I got the song Da'Bomb by Ruffedge stuck in my head!

"Cantik, menarik, tertarik, kau memang da'bomb"


I think I'm losing it.

And so the hearts (err.. the minds?) speak

A dear friend told me very recently.. that when your thoughts are suddenly centred on someone, most probably that someone is thinking about you too. Perhaps at the exact same moment.

I dunno..

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A couple day ago, while at work (morning I think), suddenly my thoughts turned to an old someone. I even managed to dig out some old mails which he responded to The Girls. Yeah, I was on cloud nine at that time.
Even now, thinking about those old e-mails, I have to suppress my silly grin.

I don't know why I suddenly remembered him a couple days ago, and had this strong urge to read what he wrote.

The funny thing was, that very same night, I saw him on YM. He's never on YM. Well, almost never that is.
(Oh yeah, it's that 'Invisible' feature :P )

And so we chatted for a while. And did some catching up. Well, mostly I updated him on what's been going on in my life, coz he did a lot of asking questions.

Hmm.. either he's good at asking question, or my probing skills have gone rusty. Ekkekekke..

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I'm now thinking if what my friend said is true.

Of gossiping and telling tales

I cannot stand people who make it a point to include mengumpat.. (err.. is it called telling tales?) as part of their daily 'To Do' list. But more often than not, I'm forced to be a listener (*sigh* most of the time against my will. Honest!)

So how do I turn these people away?

Yes I've tried appearing uninterested in their stories. I must have faked yawns after yawns. I've even tried to pointedly stare at my computer screen while typing something, not even looking at them (kononnya sibuk lah tu with work :P)

But of course, most of the time these things rarely work.
Some people derive pleasure when they gossip about other people. I wonder what would they feel if they become the subject of other people's gossip pulak..

If I know myself (which I think I do), it's not that hard for my face to show my boredom. Hmm.. I wonder if there's something I don't know. Do my facial expressions encourage all these petty talks and gossips?
Is there something written on my face that tells people I love hearing bad things about other people?
Bloody hell.. sia-sia dapat dosa laaaa... mendengar umpatan pun ada share tau! Arghhh!!

Once I read an email forwarded by someone. On things to consider before telling someone something:
(a) Is it true?
(b) Is it necessary?
(c) Will it hurt the feelings of the person involved (should they hear about it)?
("Well, will it hurt my own feelings if people talk this way about me?" Normally when I ask myself, I'd get the answer 'Yes')

Somehow these points got stuck in my head..

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Maybe I should put up a huge, bold printout at my cubicle saying "Do I look interested?"
Coz I know there were soooo many times I was sorely tempted to say: "I'm sorry, did I look interested? Honestly, that was NEVER my intention.."

Hehe..

Anugerah Era '05: Fashion Sense

If you tell me that those people attending Anugerah Era 2005 last night had fashion sense, then I don't think so I'd wanna be in the 'fashionable' group of people.

Mak tuned in to their 'Red Carpet' show (started half hour before the Anugerah Era show itself), so of course I watched it a bit. Saw some celebrities arriving at the function, plus also managed to off-and-on watch some parts of the show.

I saw Hani Bunny's shocking hair-do, and supposedly funky outfit. (erm, I wonder if the ozone layer took a beating with the amount of hairsprays and whatever being used last night..)
Tam Spider's clothes were fitting to be slept in, not something to attend a function. I belatedly realised that the theme last night was 'Funky'.. but man.. that's not funky. That's sloppy. With your shiny, satin-like pants.. they're PJs, man. Plus, shiny satin pants? A big NO-NO dude..

Ziana Zain's one-size-too-small very tight fitting dress. But oh well, some said: Honey, if you've got it, flaunt it! But.. stripes? Err.... (gone speechless)

Sham Kamikaze, as always, with his smart shirt and trousers (hmm, can't recall if he wore a jacket / blazer last night). Hehe.. I told Mak: "Sham Kamikaze ni memang Mat Smart lah. Always dress up, kan?".. But I can't say much if he actually followed the theme set.

Farah AF2 did something to her hair. Cute. Probably the closest one to 'Funky' in my books. Hehe..

Also noticed Fahrin's sleeveless outfit - suitable for working out in the gym, I must say. LOLs.. this guy must love showing off his biceps eh? ;-))
And Ummi Aida's hair-do.. well, I know she had lots of hair, I guess I just didn't realise how much hair.

Zahid AF2.. well, I know already that he's really selamba. But last night.. LOLs.. he too looked like he stumbled out of bed, put on some gel in his hair, blindly grabbed something to wear, and made his way to Bukit Jalil..

Mawi was there too with his cap and denim jacket. Not sure if THAT's funky though..

OK, OK.. I think maybe the theme 'Funky' was erm.. a bit too loose. What's funky by the way? Some may say a few LOUD, chunky accessories could make an otherwise elegant black dress.. well, funky. It's too subjective and too open for interpretation.

Anugerah Era '03 had the theme "Back to 70's" (or was it 60's?).
At Anugerah Era '04 the theme was "Urban Batik".

I thought those two themes were fun to dress up for! I saw (on TV, of course) those artistes attending these two Anugerah Era function dressed up to the nines with the themes.
But this year.. seems like a bit of a disappointment. Probably some thought being 'Funky' was a license to dress up with both eyes closed. Go figure.

I'm reminded of what Jimmy asked the group Spider after the show: "Mana yang funky nya?" (loosely translated - if it's even possible to translate! - "Which part of your outfit is 'funky'?"). The guy answered: "Di perut" (translation: "My stomach"). What the...??

Dear people at Era.fm, your theme this year is lost on many people.
"Funky"? (imagine me shaking my head here..)

Bring back the 60's or 70's anytime. Even your "Urban Batik" was more 'happening'!

As promised..

.. some Cherating photos..

Houses by the sea 


Pool with a view (Not sure if that's Club Med in the distance..) 


The pool, & a glimpse of the main lobby 


What I see from my room (imagine 3 days with this view.. best!) 


Abah snapped this photo - I think it's his favourite.. 


The one who wasn't ready to leave (hehe.. Abah snapped this one too while I was daydreaming and watching the sunrise) 


I so had a good time in Cherating.. Kudos to The Legend Resort, Cherating.. Great place you guys have here. Money permits, I might just come back.. :))

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Hmmm.. I still cannot use the "Add image" button in Blogger. I had to use 'Hello' to upload these photos. Hehe.. trying desperately to recall what Ijun thought me early this year! I've completely forgot that I can use 'Hello' from home, but maybe not at the office eh..

Arghh.. look at the time!! It's past 2am! Boleh ke bangun gi office esok?!?

Eh wait.. it's the third Saturday. I don't work tomorrow.. Yahooo!!

Happy weekend everyone. Be good, be happy, and most of all, be true to yourself.

Ramblings on a Friday

For what it's worth, I'm certainly not the best of human beings. Neither am I the best of friends. Or sisters. Or daughters. Or colleagues.
(The list goes on, you get the drift..)

But I tried to the best I can - in all these things.

Then I realised...
The truth is, I have to be the best of me.

Sounds snobbish? Maybe, but honestly, I don't think I'll be a good anything if I'm unhappy. Or if I'm feeling bitter and everything else negative in my heart.

I've learnt to sometimes retreat into my shell. Running away, you say? Call it what you want..

There are things in life that I'm not entirely thrilled about, but the people around me seem to enjoy. I cannot put on a happy face and join in the adventure, because to me those things are just not fun to me.

So I opted out. So I decided just to be on the sideline. Just watching from a distance.
Or I may even disappear - only to occassionally return to catch up on old stories..

Yes, sometimes it hurts to know that some friends or family are having the time of their lives, and I'm not there with them. But this is my choice. I have my own heart and feelings to consider.

I would rather not be there at all, than being there in person with a heart filled with pain and dismay.

I'd rather not join in now, but perhaps one day soon I'll pop in for some catching up.
I'd rather us remain friends, even distant ones.. than not being friends at all.

And if you're observant enough, one careful look at me and you'll soon guess what I'm feeling inside.
Perhaps that's why I'm shying away - at least for now..

For some mysterious reasons..

... Blogger.com refuses to let me put up some pictures of the Cherating trip.. arghhh!! (Hmm, maybe I should let the guys at Blogger.com know about this.. hehe..)

Anyway, have been unbelievably busy with work, what with this month's meeting being scheduled for 15th. But come to think about it, maybe it's not so bad to have early meetings - we'll all get to concentrate on other stuff for the rest of the month (before the next crazy cycle of things come around!)..

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The Cherating trip was wonderful. Apart from a couple of minor glitches (for one, the aircond in my room was a bit on the warm side, and they only gave us 1 key per room - which I thought was odd), I totally enjoyed the trip.

I completely detatched myself from all things related to work, and all things KL. Well, maybe some things in KL that is. Hehe and I did switch off my phone most of the time!

I absolutely loved my time alone at the beach..
Watching the sunrise.
Snapping away at some photos.
Simply staring out to the sea.
Walking barefoot on the beautiful sand.
Listening to the sound of waves crashing the beach.
Enjoying the salted air and feeling the warm waves lapping at my feet..

*sigh*

By the last day in Cherating, I felt so relaxed and rested, I didn't want to leave that place. Only when I went to my parents' room and I saw them finishing up packing most of their things that I reluctantly went back to my own room and slowly started to tidy up my stuff. LOLs..

I think I will try again to put up some photos. Tak syok lah dok cerita takdak gambar, kan? LOLs..
Wish me luck, eh? :D

Post-Cherating blues

I've been down with post-Cherating blues since Monday.
Was supposed to only be back to the office on Thursday. But on Monday morning, I received a call from work, telling me to come back to the office. Adoi!! There goes my happy-coz-I'm-on-holiday mood!

When I came back to work on Tuesday, Jikin said I've got 'muncung panjang' (err.. what's this expression in English ek?) coz my holiday was cut short.

Go figure :P

Will be putting up some photos of Cherating.. hmm, maybe there's one photo of yours truly here. LOLs...