2005 Is Peeking From The Corner

And I'm still holding tightly to 2004. Or whatever's left of it.

I suppose I ought to be doing that yearly ritual again. You know, pondering on what I've achieved in the past 12 months. And what I have not.

Right. Let's get this done and over with. :P

1.
I've gotten over a bad relationship. Well. That's not true. It wasn't bad. It wasn't even a relationship in the first place. More like, hmm.. I don't know what to even call it.

*sigh* Let me try this again.

I've had a closure with someone. High time, I would say. No, he wasn't a boyfriend. He was a friend. Well, at least I'd like to put it that way.

Let say I've put things, and I've put him in the rightful place: In the past.
What I'm trying to say here is, I've said my goodbye. And if I don't hear from him again, that's OK. Well, actually it would be best if I don't hear from him again. Ever.

2.
I've given up trying to understand my friends. I still love them to pieces, but I also understand now that they may evolve to be someone different from the people I used to know. People do change. Sometimes change is for the better, though sometimes it's not.

- I think I don't need to understand why Ms. A prefers to spend more time to look good, and why she prefers to hang out with a different group of people.
- I don't think I want to know why Ms. B is behaving the way she is. A perpetual PMS? OK, let's not go there. (BTW Fawa, I pinjam your "PPMS" term. LOLs..!)
- I refuse to analyse my low tolerance level towards Ms. C - who seems nice and understanding and all-that, but whom I think is trying too hard and simply appears patronizing in my eyes. Sorry, but my reaction to her statements would sometimes be: "As if." *sigh* I think I’m not a good friend lah... :-|
- I think I get Ms. D's desire to occasionally lace her sentences with stories about her baby girl. It's her firstborn! I can understand how excited she is to share with us all the developments of her baby.

I love my friends, I do. But I've accepted the fact that I'm not responsible for their choices in life – neither are they for the things I decide. And I think I should point out that (in case you've forgotten) we make our own choices, and we live with the consequences of what we chose.

I am learning to be a better friend. I am.

3.
I didn't manage to register for the CFA June 2005 exam. If I'm not mistaken, they're having a December 2005 sitting. I assume registration for that should be in this coming February / March.
InsyaAllah I'm aiming for the December 2005 exam.

4.
I did not lose some kilos. Neither did I put on much.

If you think differently (especially on the last bit), could you kindly keep that thought to yourself?

Hahahha!!

5.
I know I make good baked pasta.
OK, OK. My tastebuds tell me it's delicious! So I'll say I've managed to fine-tune the making of 'macaroni bakar' this year. Hehehhehe..

6.
I think I'm not in a serious relationship.
Well, I was at the beginning of the year, but today, that appears not to be the case.

Mak did ask me recently: "You're almost 28, takde pikir pasal kahwin ke?"

My response?
"Almost 28? Mak, Yam already 28 laa.."

Eheh, I guess I didn't answer her question eh?

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OK lah, enough list.

All in all, I've done some, and some others I didn't manage to do. I suppose since I don't make a "Things to achieve" list last year December, I can't really say how much I've done compared to the list - neither can I tell you how much I have or have not achieved.

Oh.

So THAT'S the reason some people keep a list, eh?