It's just a phase that I'm going through (I hope)

Forgive me.

I’m currently undergoing a phase where I believe everyone has turned his / her back on me. Recent events have fueled my suspicions that the world is plotting against me, and everyone is participating happily.

Knowing C, she has always been competitive, and I admire that trait in her. But lately, she’s been getting on my nerves. Competing for attention?

Oh no, no. She never openly said anything bad to me, or about me. But her actions, her words excluded me from the fun that she’s obviously going to have.

Why exclude me? Am I THAT threatening to her friendship with the rest of the world? She has always been the one that shines, mostly the centre of attention. Why me? I’m the one who stays in the background – I don’t enjoy attention. Most of my friends know this. And C does too.

You want to shine? Go ahead.
You want to be centre of attention? That’s fine with me too.
You want to prove to everyone that you’re the most happening creature on Earth? Be my guest.
You want to bolot X’s friendship? You can try.

I don’t care.

*sigH*
Who am I kidding? I do care. Else I wouldn’t be writing this entry.


C, you’re getting on my nerves!

No.
Let me rephrase that.

You hurt my feelings.
I feel excluded. I know I’m not exactly you best friend, and maybe you’re not mine either. But we’ve been friends. Good ones. For 5 bloody years. Even more than that. How would you feel if I deliberately exclude you from everything I do?

You know what? I even planned ways to get back to you.

Then I decided that I’m not gonna stoop to YOUR level.

You go ahead and do whatever you want. From this day onwards, I’m pledging indifference. To you. I’m sure you’ll be happy with one less friend who can threaten to steal the spotlight from you.

Maybe one day, when I'm seeing things in a different light, I'll change. And be, once again, the kind of friend that I've always been.