OST Cinta: Perpisahan - Anuar Zain

Just because I've been in love with this song for quite some time, I'm FORCING you readers to listen to it too.
Hehhehehe!!

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Perpisahan - Anuar Zain (OST Cinta)

Kumengerti perpisahan ini
Bukan kerana kau membenci
Tapi kasih yang pernah kuberi
Tiada lagi bersama...

Sering kala aku
Terlihatkanmu
Impian nan indah
Tersulam bahagia

Kuharungi hari demi hari
Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
Tapi hati masih tak terima
Ditinggalkan sengsara...

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Perasaan hati masih rindu
Kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku
Tercari-cari bayanganmu

Tak sanggup aku
Kehilangan...

Kehilangan mu...
Masih tercari-cari

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Masih tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku
Kehilangan mu....

(OK, kalau salah lirik tu, minta maaf. Ni based on my ears je.. hehe..)

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But from the reviews I've read... Ramai yang bagi 'thumbs up'. :D

I'm watching the movie tomorrow, with some of the most beloved people in my life. Will write more on the movie afterwards, ya..

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Oh..
Did I mention that .. aku cuti esok..?

;))

Taking time off..

I took time off from KL over the weekend.
Went to PD for a breath of fresh air.

My weekend was filled with lots of good food, relaxing, watching TV & DVD, food and food, jalan tepi laut, more food, sleep, watching DVD, food, relaxing, food..
Hehe.. you get the drift..

During the 2 days in PD, I must've put on all the weight I've lost during the past 2 months.. LOLs..

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Today doesn't seem as gray as it has been recently.. thank goodness for the small gifts in life.

Have a good week ahead, everyone.

I've been meaning to update.. but somehow lately, words have failed me.

To those expressing concern about the recent 'tones' of my posts, I'm sorry if I cause any alarm. It wasn't my intention.

I'm doing... okay.. the occassional ups-and-downs are part-and-parcel of life, and I'm still alive.

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Maybe the tight schedule of the past week has finally got to me. Maybe it was matters of the heart. Maybe it's the worry of the financial status. I'm not sure which..

But.. Last night.. I was vulnerable. My emotions were running amok - with high tendency to shed tears.

I had to hear a friendly voice.

So I called someone.

Within 10 seconds he could tell that something was not right, I wasn't my usual self. When he asked why my voice was different and if I were down with fever, my voice broke.
He then correctly guessed that I was crying.

I couldn't tell him why I was feeling the way I did. Heck, I couldn't even properly explain it to myself.

We ended up talking.. Just catching up. I told him of my weekend plans. And my plans for next weekend too.

He asked questions. Simple, and safe questions. And I gladly answered. At least it kept my mind from thinking about things that would pull me down again.

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I'm off to PD tomorrow morning, spending the weekend at one of the apartments there.

And next weekend I'll be travelling even further down south.

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I thanked him for listening. And apologised too for keeping him away from what he was doing.

One of the not-so-safe questions he asked: Siapa yang buat Yam sampai down macam ni?
I asked him back: Kenapa terus teka it's a 'siapa' ?

He said, most of the time people feels down and upset, it's because of someone. Not something.
"And I think I'm 80% sure in your case it's a 'someone' yang buat Yam macam ni.."

I kept quiet 'cause I didn't have an answer to that.

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He told me to call him if I ever wanted to talk about what's bothering me. As tempted as I was to grab that offer, I think, for now, I'll be OK.

Thank you for listening. Thank you.

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To everyone, may your weekend be filled with love.
Stay safe ya..

My dear,
Sometimes I do wish I'm on a different planet..

*sigh*

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And Sheils..? Erm.. in a perfect world, what you said earlier today will most probably take place. And yes, that particular kitten is oh-so-ready for lessons in life :P


Hmm.. tapi, we're not living in a perfect world lah kan..
So.. Can I just grab the little gifts that life hands out to me?
;))

LOLs..

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Oh by the way, I think the kitten is still ever-so-curious..

;)

Mumblings and mutterings (and it's way too early in the morning..)

I can't sleep.
It's past 4am and my eyes are still open. I'm bloody tired, tapi tak boleh tido. Esok keje ni Mariam oi..

Adeih...

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I discovered that I'm beginning to miss my daily dose of conversation with a close friend. Partly due to the long break during Hari Raya..
Partly because.. erm.. I'm not too sure myself.. A (semi) conscious decision?

Ntah lah..

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Wonder why it's easy to talk to some people, while not so with some others? Is it just me, and my conversation skills? (Or the lack of it..)

With certain people in my life, I can just blurt out any topic under the sun, while with some other people I sometimes have to crack my head to think of something to say. Anything will do to just fill up the silence.

And then there's some others, whom I'm just happy to be with, even minus any talks. Filled with comfortable silent moments, you may call it.

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I think I'm suffering from post-Raya-break blues.
LOLs..


Oh btw.. must update something..
Now.. where's that sample a good friend gave me not too long ago..?
And wonder where I kept my personal documents? Hmm...