Salam Aidil Fitri

Salam Aidil Fitri, everyone.

Keep safe ya..


-Yam-

Letting go is so damn hard

Letting go of something - especially when that something is so close to your heart -is sooo bloody hard..

I've recently let go of a couple things I seriously thought I couldn't live without. Honestly? It's almost killing me. I've been on a near-constant state of crying for the past few days. Senang betul nak keluar air mata - at work, dalam teksi, in the LRT, dalam kereta. Nak tido every night tu tak payah cakap lah, memang sah bangun pagi mata bengkak.
I've lost the appetite to eat, and I haven't been sleeping well lately..
A colleague asked "How come dah lost weight? Sakit ke?" Hmm...

I initially wanted to remain selfish and didn't want to let go. I mean I was happy with how things were going on.
But then I realised that I've come to depend on them too much, when in fact some distance should've been maintained.. They're not exactly available, and goodness knows they can't commit anymore than what they've given so far.

And so I let them go. I said goodbye. I honestly do not know if it's a permanent farewell, or just a temporary separation.

One part of me wish for things to be as they were before. But I guess we know it's not as easy as I hoped it would be.

I'm sorry. I truly am.

I wonder why..

.. sometimes our thoughts would turn to the things or people that we're trying to forget..?

Sometimes it feels like.. the more I'm trying to let go, the tighter it's pulling me back.

That monthly thingy..

..came on time.

And it came with a vengeance.
Sekali dengan demam nya, tonsil bengkak nya, pening kepala nya (sakit belah kanan saja, tapi tak pulak macam migraine), dengan sakit senggugut tu takyah cakap ler..

Sampai 2 hari MC tu - Wednesday and Thursday.

Parah betul.

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Ta siap telefon kat office - asking if I'm well enough to make it to Saturday's buka puasa with the schoolmates.

Hehe.. Harini pun alhamdulillah dah ok sikit..
But I'm gonna call it a day, in a few minutes' time.

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Have a wonderful weekend everyone.
I know I will :D

How's your puasa so far?

Tomorrow will be 11th day of Ramadhan. So how's your puasa so far?

Mine.. alhamdulillah.
Belum ada yang tinggal lagi.. hehe..
But I can see a pimple near my chin. Hmm.. I guess my body's telling me "it's coming soon" LOLs..

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This year's Ramadhan seems calmer than most years. Not that I'm complaining.. But, I've been having all my buka puasa at home with Mak Abah. I can't remember how it was last year.. But I thought I started my 'berbuka luar' earlier compared to this Ramadhan.


I'm meeting The Schoolmates this Saturday insyaAllah. We're having our ifttar somewhere in Ukay Perdana. Buffet lah of course hehe. Based on the emails flying around in the past few days, insyaAllah the turnout would be more than last year's session. Last year we had it at Nelayan Titiwangsa, and followed by a teh tarik outing at Jln Yap Kwan Seng hehehe.. (go here for a recap :P). Hmm.. OK, must make sure someone brings a camera. So that I can upload some recent photos here eh? :D


On Sunday, Mak plans to have an ifttar with the family - and by 'family' I mean Mak Ton & her whole family, and Uncle Sam of course. I think Cousin Lene is already aware of this, and Wewe too, but I must remember to contact Kak Inn on this.

This means, we'll be making roti kentang again hehe...
Oh.. maybe will buy a cake. Celebrate 3 birthdays - Abah, Lene & Boy.


Next week's Friday, I'm meeting The Girls. I think this year we're having it in KLCC - easily accessible by public transport (ni untuk orang2 macam aku ler yg tak drive to work hehe..). Where? Haven't decided. But someone suggested Shrooms. Hmm.. takpe, we've got a week to make up our minds eh )

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Which reminds me, must meet up with Rozy. Bila ek? Rozy, when are you free dearie? Let's do ifttar. Or supper. Tak kisah..

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Talking about supper... mm... I'm having one with an old friend. Nak kata long overdue, tak pulak. But to me, it feels like it's been quite a while.. so we're definitely meeting up soon!