Blog This, Blog That

2006-12-12T22:48:00.000+08:00

To start something new.. I've realised that there are some things I've got to let go. Maybe tuck them neatly in the past, where they belong.

* * *

I do want to start afresh.

So, I gotta start to let go.

The thing is...
I don't know how

Movie review: Cinta (a.k.a Cinta The Movie)

2006-12-01T21:26:00.000+08:00

Before you ask, it wasn't a marathon.

I took yesterday off, and yes, it was for the purpose of watching this movie (haha, won't be getting that 'worker contoh' award nampaknya.. :P). Caught the movie with Leen and Boy.

Been trying to book online / phone booking since Wednesday eve, but I assumed the movie wasn't in TGV's system yet, that's why unsuccessful.

Arrived in KLCC around 11am++, intending to buy tickets for the 1.40 show. Percaya tak it was freakin' SOLD OUT!! OK lah, go to plan B: watch the 4.10 show. Tried phone booking, pun sold out??? Apahal ni?!
Fine fine, I'll go and queue up laaa. I think when I was at the counter, there was like 20 seats left, or less than that..

Hmm.. for opening day, not bad eh?

* * *

It is quite a simple movie, themed on 'LOVE', and hence the title CINTA (Malay translation of LOVE.. well, at least one of the few words to describe 'love' ..)

Plot: Similar to British movie 'Love Actually', this one has 5 love stories, somewhat connected, in one movie.
Often when the word 'love' is mentioned, one would picture a man and a woman happy together. But 'love', really, is more than that. And love stories do not necessarily have to be happy ones..

I really like the story between Rahim Razali and Fatimah Abu Bakar. And I felt strangely connected to the story between Nanu Baharuddin and Que Haidar. For the story between Eizlan Yusof and Fasha Sandha, it was too "romantic novel" for me. Hehehhe..
I think the story between Rashidi Ishak and Rita Rudaini is most common around us. Whether or not we want to accept that it exist is another matter. And whether or not the storyline and the ending is similar to the movie, or completely opposite.. it's up the 'main characters' to decide..

Cast: 10 main actors / actresses in the movie, with 2 main characters in each of the five stories. Plus, a handful of good actors in supporting roles. I don't want to go into too much detail, you guys can actually read it up here (official website).

My faves (in their respective roles) would be Rahim Razali, Fatimah Abu Bakar, Nanu Baharuddin, and errr the little girl who played Rashidi Ishak & Rita Rudaini's daughter. And I think Rashidi Ishak wasn't bad either.

As for Rashidi Ishak's character in the movie, Haris, I do wonder if such man exists...

Verdict: LOVE it. I must've cried some, coz afterwards I noticed my eyes were puffy. Leen cried more than I did, tapi apasal mata kau tak sembab pun? Tak ci weih.. hehe..

* * *

Someone asked me, what did you learn from this movie?

1. Everyone needs love (a.k.a that connection with another human being). Cinta? Sayang? Kasih? Care? Concern?
Call it what you want honey, a rose by any other name smells just as sweet..)
2. We can't make someone love us - love is given on free will, not by force
3. Sometimes.. loving someone also means letting go..

* * *

You know.. for a while, I hated Rita Rudaini's character, Airin. She has.. like.. the perfect husband.. what else do you want, woman? You ungrateful dog :P

But after thinking about it.. she's actually a brave one. To walk out of a marriage that seems perfect, into another relationship based solely on feelings.. Not many would do that. They might think about it, but rarely they would act on those thoughts.

A lot of people (and I mean A LOT here..) would settle for whatever they already have. It's safer that way.. Why let go of something you're sure of, right? Why venture into the unknown?

Mm, I'm not sure I'm that kind of risk-taker.. I'm too much of a coward kot..

* * *

4. Don't settle for less, when you know you can have more. For goodness sake, give yourself some credit!
5. It takes two to tango. Relationship needs BOTH parties to work. Can't have one side always giving, and the other always taking.

* * *

So..?
GO WATCH the movie..! Highly recommended

Plus.. Sokonglah industry perfileman Malaysia. :D

Muahs!

OST Cinta: Perpisahan - Anuar Zain

2006-11-29T22:14:00.000+08:00

Just because I've been in love with this song for quite some time, I'm FORCING you readers to listen to it too.
Hehhehehe!!

* * *

Perpisahan - Anuar Zain (OST Cinta)

Kumengerti perpisahan ini
Bukan kerana kau membenci
Tapi kasih yang pernah kuberi
Tiada lagi bersama...

Sering kala aku
Terlihatkanmu
Impian nan indah
Tersulam bahagia

Kuharungi hari demi hari
Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
Tapi hati masih tak terima
Ditinggalkan sengsara...

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Perasaan hati masih rindu
Kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku
Tercari-cari bayanganmu

Tak sanggup aku
Kehilangan...

Kehilangan mu...
Masih tercari-cari

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Masih tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku
Kehilangan mu....

(OK, kalau salah lirik tu, minta maaf. Ni based on my ears je.. hehe..)

* * *

But from the reviews I've read... Ramai yang bagi 'thumbs up'. :D

I'm watching the movie tomorrow, with some of the most beloved people in my life. Will write more on the movie afterwards, ya..

* * *

Oh..
Did I mention that .. aku cuti esok..?

;))

Taking time off..

2006-11-20T21:36:00.000+08:00

I took time off from KL over the weekend.
Went to PD for a breath of fresh air.

My weekend was filled with lots of good food, relaxing, watching TV & DVD, food and food, jalan tepi laut, more food, sleep, watching DVD, food, relaxing, food..
Hehe.. you get the drift..

During the 2 days in PD, I must've put on all the weight I've lost during the past 2 months.. LOLs..

* * *

Today doesn't seem as gray as it has been recently.. thank goodness for the small gifts in life.

Have a good week ahead, everyone.

2006-11-18T02:56:00.000+08:00

I've been meaning to update.. but somehow lately, words have failed me.

To those expressing concern about the recent 'tones' of my posts, I'm sorry if I cause any alarm. It wasn't my intention.

I'm doing... okay.. the occassional ups-and-downs are part-and-parcel of life, and I'm still alive.

* * *

Maybe the tight schedule of the past week has finally got to me. Maybe it was matters of the heart. Maybe it's the worry of the financial status. I'm not sure which..

But.. Last night.. I was vulnerable. My emotions were running amok - with high tendency to shed tears.

I had to hear a friendly voice.

So I called someone.

Within 10 seconds he could tell that something was not right, I wasn't my usual self. When he asked why my voice was different and if I were down with fever, my voice broke.
He then correctly guessed that I was crying.

I couldn't tell him why I was feeling the way I did. Heck, I couldn't even properly explain it to myself.

We ended up talking.. Just catching up. I told him of my weekend plans. And my plans for next weekend too.

He asked questions. Simple, and safe questions. And I gladly answered. At least it kept my mind from thinking about things that would pull me down again.

* * *

I'm off to PD tomorrow morning, spending the weekend at one of the apartments there.

And next weekend I'll be travelling even further down south.

* * *

I thanked him for listening. And apologised too for keeping him away from what he was doing.

One of the not-so-safe questions he asked: Siapa yang buat Yam sampai down macam ni?
I asked him back: Kenapa terus teka it's a 'siapa' ?

He said, most of the time people feels down and upset, it's because of someone. Not something.
"And I think I'm 80% sure in your case it's a 'someone' yang buat Yam macam ni.."

I kept quiet 'cause I didn't have an answer to that.

* * *

He told me to call him if I ever wanted to talk about what's bothering me. As tempted as I was to grab that offer, I think, for now, I'll be OK.

Thank you for listening. Thank you.

* * *

To everyone, may your weekend be filled with love.
Stay safe ya..

2006-11-09T22:30:00.000+08:00

My dear,
Sometimes I do wish I'm on a different planet..

*sigh*

* * *

And Sheils..? Erm.. in a perfect world, what you said earlier today will most probably take place. And yes, that particular kitten is oh-so-ready for lessons in life :P

Hmm.. tapi, we're not living in a perfect world lah kan..
So.. Can I just grab the little gifts that life hands out to me?
;))

LOLs..

* * *

Oh by the way, I think the kitten is still ever-so-curious..

;)

Mumblings and mutterings (and it's way too early in the morning..)

2006-11-01T04:18:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep.
It's past 4am and my eyes are still open. I'm bloody tired, tapi tak boleh tido. Esok keje ni Mariam oi..

Adeih...

* * *

I discovered that I'm beginning to miss my daily dose of conversation with a close friend. Partly due to the long break during Hari Raya..
Partly because.. erm.. I'm not too sure myself.. A (semi) conscious decision?

Ntah lah..

* * *

Wonder why it's easy to talk to some people, while not so with some others? Is it just me, and my conversation skills? (Or the lack of it..)

With certain people in my life, I can just blurt out any topic under the sun, while with some other people I sometimes have to crack my head to think of something to say. Anything will do to just fill up the silence.

And then there's some others, whom I'm just happy to be with, even minus any talks. Filled with comfortable silent moments, you may call it.

* * *

I think I'm suffering from post-Raya-break blues.
LOLs..

Oh btw.. must update something..
Now.. where's that sample a good friend gave me not too long ago..?
And wonder where I kept my personal documents? Hmm...

Salam Aidil Fitri

2006-10-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

Salam Aidil Fitri, everyone.

Keep safe ya..

-Yam-

Letting go is so damn hard

2006-10-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

Letting go of something - especially when that something is so close to your heart -is sooo bloody hard..

I've recently let go of a couple things I seriously thought I couldn't live without. Honestly? It's almost killing me. I've been on a near-constant state of crying for the past few days. Senang betul nak keluar air mata - at work, dalam teksi, in the LRT, dalam kereta. Nak tido every night tu tak payah cakap lah, memang sah bangun pagi mata bengkak.
I've lost the appetite to eat, and I haven't been sleeping well lately..
A colleague asked "How come dah lost weight? Sakit ke?" Hmm...

I initially wanted to remain selfish and didn't want to let go. I mean I was happy with how things were going on.
But then I realised that I've come to depend on them too much, when in fact some distance should've been maintained.. They're not exactly available, and goodness knows they can't commit anymore than what they've given so far.

And so I let them go. I said goodbye. I honestly do not know if it's a permanent farewell, or just a temporary separation.

One part of me wish for things to be as they were before. But I guess we know it's not as easy as I hoped it would be.

I'm sorry. I truly am.

I wonder why..

2006-10-08T17:29:00.000+08:00

.. sometimes our thoughts would turn to the things or people that we're trying to forget..?

Sometimes it feels like.. the more I'm trying to let go, the tighter it's pulling me back.

That monthly thingy..

2006-10-06T21:46:00.000+08:00

..came on time.

And it came with a vengeance.
Sekali dengan demam nya, tonsil bengkak nya, pening kepala nya (sakit belah kanan saja, tapi tak pulak macam migraine), dengan sakit senggugut tu takyah cakap ler..

Sampai 2 hari MC tu - Wednesday and Thursday.

Parah betul.

* * *

Ta siap telefon kat office - asking if I'm well enough to make it to Saturday's buka puasa with the schoolmates.

Hehe.. Harini pun alhamdulillah dah ok sikit..
But I'm gonna call it a day, in a few minutes' time.

* * *

Have a wonderful weekend everyone.
I know I will :D

How's your puasa so far?

2006-10-03T21:58:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow will be 11th day of Ramadhan. So how's your puasa so far?

Mine.. alhamdulillah.
Belum ada yang tinggal lagi.. hehe..
But I can see a pimple near my chin. Hmm.. I guess my body's telling me "it's coming soon" LOLs..

* * *

This year's Ramadhan seems calmer than most years. Not that I'm complaining.. But, I've been having all my buka puasa at home with Mak Abah. I can't remember how it was last year.. But I thought I started my 'berbuka luar' earlier compared to this Ramadhan.

I'm meeting The Schoolmates this Saturday insyaAllah. We're having our ifttar somewhere in Ukay Perdana. Buffet lah of course hehe. Based on the emails flying around in the past few days, insyaAllah the turnout would be more than last year's session. Last year we had it at Nelayan Titiwangsa, and followed by a teh tarik outing at Jln Yap Kwan Seng hehehe.. (go here for a recap :P). Hmm.. OK, must make sure someone brings a camera. So that I can upload some recent photos here eh? :D

On Sunday, Mak plans to have an ifttar with the family - and by 'family' I mean Mak Ton & her whole family, and Uncle Sam of course. I think Cousin Lene is already aware of this, and Wewe too, but I must remember to contact Kak Inn on this.

This means, we'll be making roti kentang again hehe...
Oh.. maybe will buy a cake. Celebrate 3 birthdays - Abah, Lene & Boy.

Next week's Friday, I'm meeting The Girls. I think this year we're having it in KLCC - easily accessible by public transport (ni untuk orang2 macam aku ler yg tak drive to work hehe..). Where? Haven't decided. But someone suggested Shrooms. Hmm.. takpe, we've got a week to make up our minds eh )

* * *

Which reminds me, must meet up with Rozy. Bila ek? Rozy, when are you free dearie? Let's do ifttar. Or supper. Tak kisah..

* * *

Talking about supper... mm... I'm having one with an old friend. Nak kata long overdue, tak pulak. But to me, it feels like it's been quite a while.. so we're definitely meeting up soon!

So.. what's your doodle?

2006-09-24T16:49:00.000+08:00

I've noticed a habit (long time ago pun dah notice dah) of mine.. when I'm on the phone and I can get my hand on a piece of paper and a pen / pencil, I would doodle.
I also doodle when I'm thinking about something (mm, tangan ni gemar betul berjalan :P)

OK, my Microsoft Word program tells me doodle can also be called sribbles, squiggles, drawings, etc.. I'd simply call it 'conteng-conteng' hehe..

Mm.. selalunya.. my doodles would consist of my name (fullname or otherwise), or my initials, or various versions of my signature, or I would be drawing boxes / circles and shade them in, or I would be doodle-ing on the subject matter being discussed / whatever I'm thinking about.

A couple days ago, I doodled again while on the phone. When I hang up, I noticed something different about my contengan: I wrote the name of a very close friend. Lots of it. LOTS.

Hmm.. sejak bila pulak la aku start menulis nama orang lain ni..? :P
(OK, before anyone asks, let me just say that I don't intend to beritau who's the person. Nanti ada yg kecik hati pulak, susah kan? Better keep it to myself je lah hehe..)

* * *

I talked to Sheils on YM sometime last week.

Among many things we talked about, I admitted to Sheils about something I haven't exactly acknowledged lately : I miss being in a relationship.

Interesting eh..?

Marhaban ya Ramadhan..

2006-09-22T22:40:00.000+08:00

Selamat datang wahai bulan Ramadhan.
Selamat datang ya bulan yang penuh rahmat dan barakah.
Selamat datang hai bulan yang penuh dengan pengampunan, yang pintu taubat dibuka seluas-luasnya..

Ramadhan starts on Sunday 24th Sep'06 for us here in Malaysia.

Salam Ramadhan everyone.
Mohon ampun maaf kalau ada buat salah dan silap (kalau nak tunggu 1 Syawal baru minta maaf, tak tentu lagi bertemu ke tidak, kan.. Minta maaf lah siap-siap hehe..)

Good to gather up :)

2006-09-19T07:10:00.000+08:00

The Girls gathered last Saturday, this time at Mas's new house - her bachelor pad hehe.. Sheils & I came on Friday night - Mas fetched us at KL Sentral, and we went for dinner at this place with lots photos of P.Ramlee and other 50's / 60's celebs, somewhere kat err.. Hartamas? Sorry, definitely not my area so aku tak tau.

Then we went home to Mas's place.

OMG... I SOOOOO love her house, right from the moment I stepped in! You should've seen me in those first few minutes - tak sabar2 nak tengok every inch of her bachelor pad!

Babes, aku SUKA giler kat rumah kau. Can I come lepak sometimes..? Hhehehe..

* * *

Gathering was good, of course. Food was PLENTY! Girls, we really need to cut down on our tendency to bring too much. LOLs.. But alhamdulillah, everyone ada bawak balik something :)

We watched a movie called Something New - Mel brought the DVD over. Although I didn't watch the whole movie completely, I managed to catch enough of the movie to understand it. And Mel, I cried at the end. Even with the happy ending, as I told Sheils, that kind of things don't happen to me :P

There were some talking done, although not as much as I would've liked (erm, camner nak borak with DVD and makan and dunno what else..)..

* * *

However.. Mas, Sheils & I did do some talking on Friday.. until about 1.30 in the morning (OK, Mel.. don't freak out.. breathe....)

One of the things I mentioned (and it still plays in my head until this minute), is that.. one of the things I miss out when I'm not married, are my own kids.

I mean, if I don't have my own kids, siapa lah nak doakan aku and sedekah al-Fatihah for me when I'm not around nanti.. kan? As Sheils mentioned.. after a certain period, friends forget. Even close friends.

OK takmo cakap dah. Sensitif lak pagi-pagi ni.

Lately ni..

2006-09-13T23:23:00.000+08:00

..terasa mudahnya menangis.

Hati ni, asyik sayu je.

Dok fikir apa, aku sendiri pun tak pasti.

Yang pasti, brain activities aku shot up laa recently.

An out-of-this-world experience..

2006-09-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

Am back in KL, insyaAllah.. Been here since 2nd Sept.. Tapi, erm, macam tak tertulis lak post ni..

* * *

It was an out-of-this-world experience for me, in both Makkah and Madinah.
The sense of peace.. the feelings, the emotions.. the whole experience.. I guess it's a bit difficult to find the perfect words for them.

* * *

We arrived around 4pm local time in Jeddah. Headed straight to Madinah.

The first morning I went for solat Subuh in Masjid Nabawi.. I was overwhelmed by the throngs of people heading towards the masjid. Macam.. giler ramai orang. It was a bit surreal to me.. It was certainly a rare sight - for Subuh prayers that is. Nampak sangat lah berapa kerat je aku gi solat Subuh berjamaah kat masjid.

That same morning, after breakfast, Mak & I decided to visit maqam Rasulullah. The gates were opened for women daily only between 6.30am to about 9am. The rest of the time, women weren't allowed to be near Raudhah (inside the masjid).
Mula-mula ingat nak masuk gak ke Raudhah, tapi, lepas dengar some screams from some women, we both takut.. ingat stampede ke apa. So.. terpaksa la tukar plan.

Alhamdulillah found a spot mengadap maqam Rasul, so we both solat sunat and sampaikan salam pada Rasulullah and 2 sahabat, and sampaikan kiriman salam from friends and family pada Rasulullah.

Sebaknya hati.. Allah dan Rasulullah saja yang tahu. Airmata tak berhenti-henti mengalir masa kat dalam tu.

* * *

We spent 3 nights in Madinah.
The second morning (Monday), ada program ziarah. Sempat melawat a few places, termasuklah kebun kurma Salman Farisi. Hasil2 from kebun ni, dah diwakafkan untuk Masjid Nabawi. And kebun ni banyak tanam kurma ajwa / kurma Nabi / kurma Rasul. Alhamdulillah dapat la merasa air Madinah. Mak pesan, take this opportunity, jgn risau pasal basah ke kotor ke. Ni air dari kebun ni, underground water, dah beribu tahun. And it's the same water yg Rasulullah mandi and minum.

Lepas Mak cakap camtu, ramai lak dari group tu yg aku tengok pi turun ke parit tu and cuci2 kaki la, basuh muka, and tadah air Madinah. Hehe.. (Mak pernah sampai tempat ni, so she basically knows some history la..). Agaknya, kalau takde lelaki, aku dah mandi dah kat situ. Tapi.. hmm, terpaksa la kontrol sikit. LOLs..

On Tuesday morning, went to ziarah maqam Rasulullah again, to say goodbye. And doa sesangat supaya dapat ziarah again.. Please let this be just a temporary goodbye and not a permanent one.

Again berderai airmata..
Senang benar nangis bila fikir tak dapat kembali ke situ and ucap salam pada Rasulullah again..

* * *

Tuesday lepas lunch, left Madinah, and gerak gi Makkah. Arrived around 11pm (dalam ber-ihram tu), check in room, freshen up sikit, had late dinner, and around 12.15midnight, made our ways to Masjidil Haram.

Macam.. mimpi je rasa. Serious tak boleh bayangkan, camner agaknya Kaabah tu yer.. Went inside through Gate 1 (Gate King Abdul Aziz).. Jalan je.. ikut Mak Abah.

And suddenly there it is.
Kaabah.

I had to slow down, sebab it caught me by surprise.. Tiba-tiba je nampak. Macam.. tak percaya nya..
Bergenang lah gak airmata..

We started tawaf close to 12.30midnight. Took our time gak.. (1) sebab memang ramai orang (2) kena tengok2 Abah sikit. He walked a bit slowly, so.. Mak & I tak boleh laju sangat la..

Selesai tawaf, went to find a spot untuk solat sunat tawaf. Time tu, memang berderai airmata. I couldn't stop crying. Rasa syukur tak terhingga sebab diizinkan sampai ke Tanah Haram. Sempat la sujud syukur insyaAllah
Rasa insaf & rendah diri sangat, rasa tak layak tu memang menggunung laa.. sebab sejahat-jahat aku ni, Allah izinkan jugak sampai ke Baitullah, izinkan jugak aku pandang Kaabah-Nya.. aku ni bukan lah baik mana pun..

After that, we went for perform Saie. Finished around 3am. Balik bilik untuk gunting rambut. Bertahallul and alhamdulillah complete-lah umrah.
4am dah gerak balik ke masjid, coz Subuh is at 4.30am..

* * *

I still feel that I haven't described it the best I could. But honestly.. there's no right words to describe it.. Rasanya.. kena pergi sendiri and experience.

And perhaps the experience would differ between one person and another..

* * *

I think I put on weight, especially masa kat Madinah. Kat Makkah burn off fat sebab banyak jalan - tawaf, saie.. err also jalan2 ke kedai-kedai hehe..
Mana tak put on weight.. hati senang. Not much to worry about. Minum air paling healthy kat dunia ni - air zamzam. Agaknya berliter-liter laa dalam badan hehe.. Habis dicucinya perut hehe..

But Nour said I've lost weight. Hmm, nanti I'll hop on a scale and tell you on Monday, ok Nour? Hehhehe..

* * *

All in all, it was an awesome experience. And I'm dying to go again. Next time, insyaAllah nak pegi dengan parents again, and tengah doa so that Kai boleh join. And Ya and Niz too.

Anna, eventhough I should be striking it off my wishlist, I'm deciding to do otherwise. This wish stays put. I'm going there again. And again. And again. And again again again. InsyaAllah.. :))

Off to a better place

2006-08-18T17:03:00.000+08:00

Mm.. In fact, it's the best place on Earth :)

* * *

InsyaAllah I'm off to Tanah Haram esok.
Flight will land in Jeddah. And we're making our way to Madinah first, by bus.

Will spend about 3 days in Madinah.. By Tuesday afternoon, insyaAllah akan gerak ke Makkah pulak.

Should be back in KL after 2 weeks from tomorrow, dengan izin Allah..

* * *

Berdebar-debar pun ada, also rasa tak sabar-sabar tu takyah cakap ler..
Silap-silap malam ni aku takleh tido.

* * *

Panjang umur, and ada rezeki, I'll be back, and will be writing more. Or meet up with some of you. Or sms. Or call. Hehe..

Doakan lah aku & parents ku sihat dan selamat, dan dapat buat umrah yang diterima-Nya. Doakan gak we all kuat tubuh badan untuk buat banyak-banyak ibadah.

Until then, take care everyone. Semoga sentiasa dalam peliharaan Allah. InsyaAllah.

Love,
Yam

Forgiveness: Asking.. & receiving..

2006-08-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

Do you know how good it feels to finally forgive someone?

* * *

I guess you could say that I've been doing some soul seaching during the past couple of weeks - some of them long overdue.

Apart from the meeting with the ex, I've had another closure yesterday.. No, it's not another ex :P
An old... friend.. whom (at one time) I didn't exactly want to befriend.. Yam, you silly girl you..

And now, somehow it felt like a burden has been lifted off my shoulders.

I'm not sure what was it I was carrying that has been weighing me down: guilt? disappointment? anger? disillusionment? frustration?

Probably a bit of each..
I thought I was entitled to all those feelings.
But thinking back, maybe I over-reacted in some issues. Or maybe I didn't use my head very much..

* * *

Forgiveness.. this one probably doesn't come easy.

The one doing the forgiving might be tempted to keep on dwelling on the other party's mistakes and wrongdoings. Kiranya.. makin diingat.. makin susah nak maafkan la tu..

The one asking for forgiveness.. well, for most people, it's sooo difficult to admit that one has actually made a mistake. It takes courage to say "I'm sorry..".

Hehe.. didn't Sir Elton John (and Blue) sang "Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word" ??

Blessed Friday :)

2006-08-11T06:02:00.000+08:00

InsyaAllah it's going to be one - a very blessed Friday indeed :D

* * *

Next Saturday (not tomorrow, ok..), I'm going to Makkah for umrah. With my parents. InsyaAllah we're flying off to Jeddah, and will be taking a bus to Madinah. After a few days in Madinah, we'll be making our way to Makkah. (we haven't attended the briefing yet, so.. not sure what's the exact itenary is like..)

I guess I was initially nervous about it. 'Why?' you ask? Mmm.. probably becoz sendiri sedar dah buat banyak dosa eheks.. (seriously ni..)

Now.. I'm still a bit nervous, but I'm also very much looking forward to it. Macam.. dah tak sabar-sabar lak nak sampai ke sana.

Tomorrow (Saturday), we're attending a 'taklimat umrah' somewhere in PJ. When Mak Abah performed their Hajj back in 2003, they did it through this travel agency. And when they went to Makkah again last year, they also used the same agency. I guess they were satisfied with the accomodation and services provided - which made them came back for more. And this time they brought me along with them hehe...

Please doa-kan my ability & strength & perseverance to perform as many umrah, as many tawaf, as many solat, as many zikir, as many recitation of al-Quran, as many ibadah.. as I would 'terdaya' while I'm there..

To a certain friend, this post is not intended to make you (more) jealous or anything. I just felt it's time to write it. Please don't hate me, ya..

To Were, who's departing for umrah tonight, semoga dikurniakan kekuatan dan ketenangan untuk beribadah banyak-banyak di Makkah and Madinah. My doa and love are with you always.

* * *

Have a blessed Friday, everyone. And may your weekend be equally rewarding.

Closure.

2006-08-10T05:57:00.000+08:00

I had a closure last night..

* * *

Met up with the ex for supper.

I texted him earlier yesterday, to let him know that I'm going for umrah next week. Didn't expect him to call me up almost immediately after that. And even more surprised when he asked to meet up for supper.

It was.. good seeing him again.
We didn't exactly ended it in bad terms (bergaduh or anything) - just that.. things were left hanging.. We kinda drifted apart.

And after 2 1/2 years, to see him again.. it certainly didn't feel like it has been 2 years plus. He looked almost the same. And somehow.. it wasn't as awkward as I imagined it would be. We talked. And laughed. Sheesh.. he talked about our first date. Chaits. Hhehe...

I didn't ask him why. I don't know if I want to know why things happen the way it happened.
I just wanted to apologise for.. everything I guess.
And he wanted to do the same - apologise. That's the reason for the meet up.

We exchanged stories. He did the talking more than half of the time. Seems like he had more things happening in his life - compared to boring ol' me LOLs..

He asked me: Bila Yam nak kawin?
I didn't have an answer to that..

I asked him the same question.
He said things have been complicated.

He asked me.. if I was waiting for him...
I said no.
Gosh I certainly didn't expect that question. It never entered my mind.
But afterwards, at home.. I thought about his question. Was I subconsciously still waiting for him? My heart tells me 'No'. But it felt weird thinking about it.
Hmm..

* * *

I forgive him. And I pray for his happiness, dunia dan akhirat. He is a good man. And he deserve good things, a good wife, and a good life.

Out of nowhere, came the SMS'es

2006-08-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

Hmm..
I'm looking at my mobile screen. Received 3 weird SMS's from an unknown number. Replied to 2 of them, and almost replied the 3rd one when I decided that.. this is SO not worth it.

It started off with the 1st SMS of Boleh berkenalan?

I went like 'What the heck???' and replied Huh? Siapa ni?

Reply: Garangnya.sy su.ni sapa?nak kenal leh?awak nama apa? sj nak kwn.

I couldn't tahan and replied: Su? Mana dapat nombor ni?

Reply: Member kasi.ni sapa?sy study lg kat upsi

I typed this: "Eh hello. You got my number from yr friend, apsal tak tanya dia i ni siapa." But then I decided that it's just not worth it. Buang masa melayan benda-benda ni. There are other things far more significant that I should be focussing on.

* * *

Things I want to highlight:

(1) Isn't UPSI a place that produces future teachers for our nation? And I'm supposed to send my children to learn from this kind of cikgu??

(2) What's with this girl? At least I think it's a girl la. Nama Su.. kan? Unless it's a guy whose name is Suparman or Suharto or Suhairi and he prefers to be called Su lah. Then sorry, my mistake.

* * *

OK, tadi terpikir juga benda-benda lain nak tulis pasal topik ni. Now I just cannot be bothered with this trivial matter. Muahhahaha..!

Su, or whoever you are out there.. Please don't go on sending 'Boleh berkenalan?' sms'es to strangers. Some people out there actually WILL take advantage of your 'offer'.

Well... as for me, blogging about it is enough. Hehhe.. Not sure if it's called 'taking advantage' though :P

Letting go of the old stuff

2006-08-05T22:57:00.000+08:00

I've recently given away 2 pairs of my telekung (the one used for prayers). They're both in excellent condition, and made of fine material. But.. I've been reluctant to wear them for quite some time dah.. Finally decided to give them away.

So today, Mak & I headed to Jln TAR / Masjid India area to window shop for replacement.

Found one pair that I really like, so I've decided to buy it. Although.. Mak mentioned that this one looked similar to one of the pairs I gave away.
LOLs..
I told Mak: "Well, I know it's different. Ni Yam beli pakai duit Yam sendiri."
Hihiihihih..

Unfortunately, bargaining is NOT my strong point. Hehehe.. my power of persuasion is soooo teruk. :P
And hence the reason for Mak coming along with me. Hehhehehe..

Hmm, actually I saw another pair of telekung that I thought looked nice, and the material seemed not bad too. I think I might go ahead and just buy it la..

* * *

I've recently decided to give up on something.

Previously, everytime I try to think of doing away with it, my head gets messed up. So, terus jadi malas nak fikir pasal benda ni.
I guess I've been in a state of denial for so long, it somehow became a norm.

However, recently.. I sat down and forced myself to seriously think about this matter.
And I've decided that.. it's time to give it up. I don't think it's wise to delay it any longer la..

* * *

I'm remembering a short story I came across a few days ago. I actually first read it a few years ago - but somehow that day I found that email again and re-read the story.. (Nour, it's that story I forwarded to you that day. I sent to Anne too)

If I can find it, I'll post it here. But for now.. I'll just tell you guys the lesson behind it:

Sometimes, we're so reluctant to let go of the small things in life..
While Allah might be waiting for us to set them free.. So that HE can give us the bigger rewards. More precious. More significant.
When HE gives us something, we have to give up some other things from our current possessions.

Let go of the little things. Let go of the small stuff.
So that HE can give us something more valuable in replacement.

* * *

I guess it's time to let some things go.

And make room for new ones...

Double standard?

2006-08-02T21:54:00.000+08:00

It was after office hour. So the LRT was jammed-packed with people trying to get home as soon as possible.

The 2 women were talking almost non-stop - even all the way from the LRT station where I stood close enough to overhear almost everything..

I got a seat after Ampang Park.
And after Jelatek there was space in front of my seat in case anyone wants to move away from the doors.

The 2 women made their way to the available space, and I can hear them talking..

Woman A: Eh jom lah diri sini (while moving towards my seat)
Woman A: Aku paling tak suka berdiri in between orang tengah bercakap (nodding her head towards a couple of people standing near the doors). As if lah aku nak dengar their conversation.
Woman B: Yeah aku paham. Sama lah. Aku nak diri pun rasa rimas.
Woman A: Ha.. sambung tadi.. kau tau.. mamat tu kan.. blablabla

Enen..
Double standard betul laa minah2 ni.

Kau tak suka dengar orang borak2, pastu kau ingat orang lain suka benar ke dengar cerita korang? Pulak tu, citer benda-benda yang sungguh shallow dan remeh.
Kalau benda kau cakap tu intelek takpe jugak. Tambah sikit ilmu gue. Ini dok potpet-potpet mengata and mengutuk artis laa, kengkawan kat office laa.

Cakap sekuat hati lak tu. Ish..

Letih laa gue.

No wonder they moved away from those couple who were talking - they weren't able to talk loudly themselves!
Ekekekekeke...

Movie Review: The Lake House

2006-08-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

My movie partner - Lene - and me.. well we sometimes do crazy things when it came to watching movies. 2 movies back-to-back sessions. Movie marathons of 3 movies in the same day. Hehe..

Last week Monday, we went ahead for a movie session after work. Neither of us give a bloody care if it was only Monday (beginning of work week), or that the next day (Tuesday) we were both working.. I guess you could say that we decided that both of us needed a break from work - well, at least for a couple of hours..

We watched The Lake House. Starring Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves. Place? TGV ler mana lagi hehe...

Hmm.. I've read a few reviews in the newspaper. And more often than not, they sound... negative. However, I refused to be swayed NOT to watch the movie. hehe...

* * *

My thoughts..

(1) It can be a bit confusing - as the movie keeps switching between Alex (Reeves) and Kate (Bullock) who happens to live on the same date, only 2 years apart. He's in 2004, and she's in 2006.

(2) The chemistry between Bullock and Reeves were soo good I felt like crying when she gave up (oops! did i give something away? :P)

(3) I actually did cry in a few scenes. Hmmmm... And yes, I saw Lene wiping her eyes too. Hahhaha!

(4) Some plots were a bit hanging - I agree that some questions were unanswered in the movie.

(5) I'd freak out completely if I were in Alex's or Kate's shoes. Able to communicate with someone from the future / past? How freaky is that?!

(6) I think Bullock and Reeves should get together in real life. Hhehehe..

* * *

My verdict?
Worth watching.

Of course, me being the hopeless romantic that I am, I'm biased towards this movie. What's not to? It's Reeves and Bullock together. Hehe.. I'm giving it a 7/10.

Honestly, you gotta watch this with an open mind. Many things didn't add up.
Didn't make sense at all.

But then, this is a movie about love.

And when did LOVE make any sense....?

Mathematica (IL)Logica...

2006-07-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

Hmm..

Imagine this.. (ok, please indulge me hehe..)

I'm in a shop, and wanted to buy a bottle of liquid detergent - and my fave brand is Detergent A.
They come in 2 sizes - 2 litres and 3 litres..

Now.. this shop I'm in is having some sort of promotion..

Price tag reads:

"Detergent A - 2 Litres RM5.99 / 3 Litres RM5.29"

Yam is thinking: "What the heck?? How come the 3 litre bottles are cheaper? What's the catch?"

OK.. so maybe there's no catch.
OK lah.. Off I go to that shelf, but a lady beat me to it. Never mind, I can wait (there are lots of detergent bottle there..)

She immediately grabbed a bottle of Detergent A.

From the highest shelf.

Yam is thinking: "Hello..? There are LOTS of Detergent A on the lower shelves. Hmmmm... OK lah. Your choice lah woman.."

And then I noticed the label on the highest shelf:
"Detergent A. RM5.99. 2L"

Yam is thinking: "OMG! What is wrong with you woman??? The BIGGER bottle is CHEAPER! Why on earth would you want to pay MORE?!?!?!?"

Woman walks away - satisfied laa agaknya that she could reach the highest shelf (fine fine, she's not that tall. So maybe being able to reach that height is an accomplishment laa kot..)

Yam is thinking: "Err.. maybe Detergent A in lower shelves is nearing expiry date... Lemme check."
"Eh ini bukan food. Nak concern benar pasal expiry date buat apa? Ni nak basuh kain jek.."

* * *

Am I weird for thinking this way?
I thought I was being logical. Who would want to pay RM5.99 for the 2Litre stuff when you can get 3Litres for CHEAPER?!

Err.. apparently some people would actually pay.

Maybe there's some sort of other promo that I'm not aware of.
Yeah that must be it lah agaknya...

Hhhmmmmmmm.....

Sorry for not updating sooner..

2006-07-20T21:11:00.000+08:00

..but to make up for that, I'm attaching some photos from the wedding.

Hehe..
Kira2 nya aku tengah pujuk kamu semua gitu.

Muahss!

p/s: I think you can click on the images to see their larger versions

* * *

Friday, 7th July 2006
Akad nikah @ home

Hantaran dari pihak lelaki

Balasan dari pihak perempuan

With some relatives from Singapore.. Thank you sooo much for coming up to KL! Love u all.. (OK, ini bukan semua tau. Ada ramai lagi yg datang, but I'm still searching for those pics! Hehe...)

* * *

Saturday, 8th July 2006
Majlis Walimah @ Dewan Komuniti Taman Ibukota

Makan beradab di meja pengantin

Yes, I was forced to behave and 'makan beradab' too. Uhuks.. :P I arrived at the main table rather hungry, and I left the table still hungry. LOLs!!

* * *

I'm sleepy. And tired. And might be coming down with flu or something.. haven't been feeling exactly well, since Monday :((

Enjoy the photos :) I'm putting up more kat Flickr (Sheils, Murn, Nour, Acat n Faisall, I know you guys can view them already LOLs..).
Will put up a link soon, I hope.
Hehe.. My memory's getting worse lately lah. Banyak betul benda tak ingat :(

Until then, take care y'all.

Chin up, it's almost Friday!!
LOLs..

yawnnn...

2006-07-12T23:41:00.000+08:00

Apasal aku asyik letih dan ngantuk jek lately nih..
Don't tell me the after-effects from the hectic wedding 'do' has not worn off yet! Adoi.. Letih laa gue kalo begini..

Been meaning to put up more photos.. Tapi, macam takde masa jek.

To all who have been seeing rather 'blurred' photos of the newlyweds (refer to previous post), if you can click on those photos, you should've been redirected to another view of the photo - a bigger one. Try ler.

Kalau takleh gak.. hmm, maybe you can use another browser to read / view this blog :)

*yawns..*
Ngantuks....

* * *

Almost lupa...
Happy birthday to beloved cousin Wewe.. May your year ahead be filled with many, many, manyyyyyy great things and much muchhhh love! Muaahhhs!

Also, a happy happy birthday with to Zura (although, I don't think she reads this blog up..).

* * *

*yawns.......*

OK I give up. Time to sleep!

Selamat Pengantin Baru

2006-07-08T07:19:00.000+08:00

Akad nikah & wedding receptions - perhaps the two or three (and for some it's even more!) biggest days in a couple's lives.

* * *

Dengan sekali lafaz, alhamdulillah yesterday at 3pm, my sister Yaya was married to Aniz.
The akad nikah was performed by Abah and witnessed by much loved family and relatives.

"With this ring..."

The loving couple

* * *

To Yaya & Aniz, Selamat Pengantin Baru. Semoga perkahwinan ini sentiasa dirahmati Allah, and may you both have many many happy, loving and blessed years together ahead of you.

Now that's one word..

2006-07-02T16:47:00.000+08:00

.. I haven't heard in a longggggg time..

It's "epok-epok".

Not sure if it's a 'loghat' or dialect... But if I remember correctly, the last time I heard it when I was still in school. Itupun terkeluar dari mulut Induk, I think..

Uncle Sam mentioned it today. He wanted to tell Kai that 'karipap sardin' is all gone.. So he said to Kai: "Epok-epok dah habis"

Hehe..
Serious lama tak dengar..

Cuti lagi..

2006-06-29T18:20:00.000+08:00

Am on leave again today.
Hehe.. macam banyakkk jek cuti aku ni.. When I applied for my leave a couple days ago, my boss asked: "So, ni untuk adik you kahwin ye?"
Me: "Yes"
Boss: (after signing the leave form) "So you bila pulak?"
Me: "Ntah. Soon maybe" (how DO you answer question camni??)

* * *

Today.. teman the bride-to-be pegi dentist, and cari some stuff kat Jusco. Which reminds me, I need to go to Jusco again. Cari pillow cases (the small square ones), maybe get a couple for myself jugak kot hehe..

I still haven't found new shoes, although I did pop into the Hush Puppies outlet at KLCC recently ;) ANDDDD... I saw a pair that I like instantly. The only problem is.. they look way too similar to my current pair hihiihih...
So, the hunt isn't over yet.

Oh yes. I've been eyeing this camera: Canon Ixus i-Zoom. Cun giler.. I've been in love for a few months dah.
Fikir-fikir.. rasanya macam nak beli. Tapi.. bila tengok budget.. hmm...

Tak tau lah. If ada rezeki, dapat jugak nanti :)

Ish.. apasal lately nih..

2006-06-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

.. aku cepat betul bengang dengan this someone. Macam suddenly boiling level reached way way below the normal temperature. Apasal tah.

Yesterday was pissed off again.
Rasanya haritu.. cakap lain.
Semalam cakap lain pulak. Tiba-tiba tukar fikiran ke? DAN bagi alasan yang sungguhlah tidak masuk akal.

As if lah people will be watching you sangat pun.
Hmm... heran jugak.
Apa ek alasan dia? Tak ingat.

Hmm.. malas nak ingat and fikir-fikir sangat. Nanti kepala sendiri jadik bengong.

Not worth it.

* * *

See? Dah marah balik bila fikir pasal dia :(

Movies I should've watched by now

2006-06-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. let's see..

1) The Da Vinci Code
2) X-Men 3: The Last Stand
3) Cars (should go with Lene and take the boys along.. hmm.. ada masa ke?)

Apa lagi ek? Rasa cam dah lama tak tengok movie..

Hmmm.. Macam tak sempat la. In slightly more than a couple weeks' time, I'll be hunting some DVDs la.. Catch up on what I've missed. Hehhehe..

* * *

On the topic of hunting, I have to buy a new pair of shoes.

Currently, my faithful Hush Puppies are used to go to work, for outings, casual wear... plenty other occassions.
I drew the line at Joy's wedding hehe.. I simply cannot wear those shoes to her wedding. LOLs!
Seriously, I had wear my high heels (which I haven't done in like AGES), and I walked with the grace of 'perempuan Melayu terakhir' awww..!
Yelah, takut jatuh (again!) :P

OK. One more item added to list: "Get new shoes. Preferably 2 pairs"
Adoi, koyak lagi poket.
Hehe..

* * *

On another note (not sure if it's also related to hunting.. hmm...), I think I should seriously think about going out on dates lah. The last time I've been on one was years ago uhukksss... I'm not sure if I possess any know-how on 'datings' anymore.
Hhahahaha!

Parah aku ni..

Wednesday's updates

2006-06-21T17:45:00.000+08:00

I'm on leave today. Sent my sis to the facial place (my treat for her), and also teman Mak gi beli some stuff in Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman and surrounding area.

We also went inside Alina's.
Actually, the intention was.... well, Mak wanted to show me some decorations for bilik pengantin. Of course, me being the decor-crazy girl I am lately, I fell in love with some ideas. Hehehe..

Erm..
We ended up buying some things there. Even tempah some err.. curtain 'backdrop' for the newlywed's room.

Kelakar giler.. Entah macam mana boleh sangkut tah kat Alina's tuh...
But really, I love the beddings there. However... memang lah most of them are suitable untuk pengantin - not for everyday use! Hehe..

Oh yes.. Not sure if I've spelled it out here, but let me just go again in case anyone missed it :)

My sister's getting married. And pretty soon too :D
The wedding will be held sometime in July, and insyaAllah preparation is going on quite well. Most of the big arrangements have been taken care of. Now tinggal the little things la... By themselves, nampak cam sikit je. Tapi bila kumpul semua.. mmm banyak rupanya kena buat. Hehe..

Hmm...
OK tak kalau aku mengada and pakai inai sama-sama dengan pengantin? ;)

Hahhaha!

That's your age?? You're SO kidding me!

2006-06-19T21:34:00.000+08:00

I told a new colleague of my age - which is 30, in case you reader are not aware of it :P

He absolutely REFUSED to believe me!!

The IM's went something like this..

Me: Eh btw, how old actually you think I am?
Him: 27
Me: WHAT??!! OMG OMG!
Me: *pensan coz excited* (hahahaha!!)
Him: OK lah.. 37?
Me: Oi no la :P
Him: 47 then?
Me: Yeah. Bingo
Him: OI! :P
Him: OK.. you're anywhere between 25-27. The most you're 28.
Me: No lah.
Me: I'm already 30. Birthday in March
Him: WHAT?!?!??!
Him: No you cannot be!!
Him: You're SO kidding me, kan?
Me: Oi apa tipu pulak. I am 30 lah
Me: Napa? Nak tengok IC ke?
Me: Ok I show you my staff card. Got IC number kan?
(Went ahead to show him. Err, he actually sits just behind me. And we talk on MSN Messenger more compared to actual talking. LOLs..)

Him: Eh cannot be lah. Mesti you tipu HR masa bagi your details dulu. I tak caya laaa!

* * *

Hehh..

Boleh tak I happy happy for a while?
Muahahhahahaha!
(Perasan muda ler tu.. ekkekekeke!)

Common courtesy? Maybe not so common..

2006-06-14T23:27:00.000+08:00

I've been making it a habit to say 'Thank you' to a lot of people..

1) my parents and family
for a million reasons hehe..

2) my friends
for another set of a million reasons. hihihih

3) the bus drivers
a habit I re-enforced when I was in the UK

4) the cleaner ladies at the office
one of whom I call 'nenek' coz she is one

5) strangers who open the doors, especially at shopping malls
sad to say, Malaysians rarely hold doors open for strangers. Malay guys (sorry, no offence to anyone, but trust me, this is way too obvious for me NOT to put it down here) especially those I've seen around are the worst lot. They more often prefer to let go of the doors behind them (kadang-kadang siap slam the doors lagi!). Nak pandang belakang and see if anyone needs to have the doors open? Jangan mimpi la. Unless they happen to notice that 'the anyone' is a drop dead gorgeous babe... LOLs..
I picked up the habit of holding doors open for strangers at the UK (hmm, and we call ourselves 'courteous'!!)

6) taxi drivers who are willing to take me to my destinations

Hmm.. ramai lagi whom I cannot think of at the moment. Hehe..

For me, saying 'thank you' is a common courtesy - a very simple one.

But I guess not everyone sees it like I do.

* * * * *

Recently I hailed a taxi and asked the driver (a man around 27 or so) if he could take me to KLCC. He said yes so I slided in and said "Terima kasih" (translate: "Thank you") the moment I was seated.

He actually seemed surprised and turned his head to look at me and said: "Kenapa cakap terima kasih? Belum sampai lagi KLCC!" (translate: "Why are you saying thank you? We haven't reached KLCC!").

I was speechless for about 3 seconds and then told him: "Terima kasih lah.. Sebab sudi ambik saya dan pergi KLCC" (loosely translate: I said thank you.. because you're willing to take me to KLCC).
(Oh btw, I actually DID use the word 'sudi' ahahahhaah! Yeah.. It surprised the heck out of me too!)

And the other day I boarded a Rapid Bus (hehe.. the RM2 bus) to work. When the bus has stopped and I was about to alight from the bus, I looked at the driver and said (rather loudly la) "Terima kasih!". I noticed a couple who were sitting near the door just looked at me with a weird expression. Probably they don't usually hear anyone thanking bus drivers eh? Hehe..

* * * * *

Hmm.. I'm not saying I'm such a goody-goody girl, LOLs.. I'm most certainly AM NOT! I guess.. I just feel thankful that someone has helped me achieve something, and as such that person ought to be appreciated.
For me, a simple 'thank you' is sometimes not enough, but if that's all I could afford to offer, then by all means I would definitely say those words.

Maybe common courtesy is not so common anymore...?

Ntah lah..

Two weddings & a funeral

2006-06-10T18:20:00.000+08:00

Over the past couple of weeks, I've attended 2 weddings.. and a funeral.

It made me realised that.. this is what life's about. Beginnings and endings. Well, maybe not exactly.. It's more of.. a cycle.

Life's a cycle.
When we think that it's the end of something.. perhaps we must also realise that somewhere out there, someone else is starting something new in his / her life.

To those facing an ending of some sort.. perhaps you should view it as a beginning of another phase, or another era.

To those starting out a new life.. all the best. And just remember.. without passion in life, things can easily get pretty dull (hehe.. some learnt it the hard way!)

Especially to Joy & husband Ki, and Ad & husband Anas.. All the best in your married lives - may Allah's Blessings be with all you newlyweds always.

Thank you..

2006-06-06T23:06:00.000+08:00

..to everyone who said a prayer and doa for arwah Auntie Ebot.

Aminn to all your doa.

And thank you again.

Al-Fatihah

2006-05-30T23:35:00.000+08:00

My aunt - we call her Auntie Ebot - passed away this morning around 7am.

Alhamdulillah telah selamat dikebumikan after solat Zuhur today.

Semoga rohnya dirahmati Allah dan ditempatkan bersama-sama orang mukmin.

Al-Fatihah.

I soooo fell in love

2006-05-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

Was at Parkson KLCC earlier today, and I was just browsing throught the beddings section.. when I came upon the display for Hallmark's beddings.

Uhuhuhuh... the moment I touched the texture of the quilt cover, I was a goner.
I fell in love!

Pastu.. tengok price tag quilt cover queen bed, terkedu lah kejap. Giler mahal. RM699.00 for quilt cover ONLY. Pair of pillowcases RM49.90. Fitted bedsheet queen bed (only) RM239.00, or something..

*sigh*

* * *

I'm adding the Hallmark's bedset (the whole ensamble, please, tq) to my wishlist. Cream colour would be lovely. Or light chocolate / earthy tone.

Thank you.

(LOLs!!!)

My "First"

2006-05-28T19:28:00.000+08:00

Mel tagged me on this.

Well, here goes...

* * * * *

First favourite book
I think Mak Abah bought me plenty of books when I was young. The first fave book I remember must have had something to do with ABC's hehe.. I can't remember the title though, but I do remember a lot of colours, and some scenery from a farm. Hehe..

First soft toy
Honestly, I don't remember at all. But there is a picture of a three-year-old me holding a black-and-white teddy bear. Probably that's it lah.

First jewellery
A set of 3 identical gold bangles from arwah Wan (Abah's late mother). I got 3 pieces, Ya got 2. It was meant to be worn by adults, so Mak kept it for me until I was in probably Standard 6 or Form 1. And I only get to wear them during Hari Raya, or at kenduri kahwin.
Now, I wear them whenever I get the chance - normally on days that I wear gold-coloured brooch so that they match hehehhe...

First kindergarten / "tadika"
I think somewhere in Ampang. I must have been 4 or 5 years old lah. I don't recall much, only that I left before the end of the school year.

First fight
I don't think I've been on a physical fight. Ever. Verbal ada lah kot. But sorry, tak ingat when is the first time.

First best friend
Hmm.. Can I give a few names?
Probably Zura, Oyen & Ta. Hehe...
I've known all of them since Std 1. We are still good friends until today - although I haven't seen them for a few months. (Yen, sorry! We all owe you & your new baby a visit. Hikhiks..)

First boyfriend
Erks! Online bf tak kira.. right? LOLs..!!!
Well, those IRC "affairs" aside, first boyfriend is probably the ex. Surprisingly, he's also the only one I can call a boyfriend. The rest are... well.. I'm not sure what to term them. Some are flings, some are scandals kot, some are probably special friends, but not serious ones. (Ish teruk aku nih :P)

First job
As a temporary clerk at AMI Insurance.
That was during the summer vacation of 1998 (I was so homesick I just had to come back home during the holidays - June to September 1998). Worked as a clerk with daily pay. Had a huge crush on one 'abang' there ekekekeke!

First car
Proton Wira (sedan) 1.5 Auto. Well, it wasn't really mine 100%. Only paid part of the monthly instalment hehe... So technically, I cannot call it my first car, eh?

First devastating death
Arwah Wan (grandmother from Abah's side). I was still a kid - 6-years-old probably. Masa tu baru je pindah ke rumah Setapak ni. I don't think I completely understood death at that time, but she has been away from home for quite some time - she has been at the hospital due to illness.
I remembered Arwah Wan the most when she comforted me once - when I accidentally locked a door from outside, and it couldn't be opened. I know Mak Abah were both really angry at me, but since Wan interfered and hid me behind her, both Mak Abah couldn't continue to scold me.
I must have been 4 or 5 at that time.

* * * * *

I have quite a few things to write. Tapi macam takde mood nak tulis.
Apasal eh?

Off to Ritz-Carlton

2006-05-24T23:32:00.000+08:00

I'm supposed to have a 2-day training at Carlton Business Centre (today and tomorrow). Unfortunately there were loose ends at the office which required me to miss today's session.
*sigh* all those nice food.. and I wasn't there!

:P

I think I should be able to make it tomorrow. Must remember to SMS boss and ask if I'm needed at the office. (Let's hope I'm not!)

That's Thursday.
Then it's Friday.
Then it's the weekend.
(And school holidays begin, right?)

How time flies...

* * *

Talking about school holidays, it's normally associated with weddings and kenduri nikah kahwin and all the 'do'. And I've already got 2 wedding invitations - both are schoolfriends.

It's going to be interesting to see old friends, some I haven't met since SPM (OMG, it HAS been that long..).

* * *

*yawnnnn*
I seem to be getting tired easily lately nih. Wonder why...

Perhaps it's time to plan a vacation, eh?
:)

Err..

2006-05-19T23:13:00.000+08:00

About the state of non-update of this blog..
Can I blame my laziness?

LOLs..

(Yes Amir. I am THAT lazy to update. Alah, I cheating sekali sekala jek. Hahaha!)

Progressing rather nicely :))

2006-05-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah the renovation works on the house is progressing rather nicely.

Kalau ikut original plans, memang patutnya dah selesai. But along the way, we added stuff to be renovated - some over here, some over there.

My room has been painted a soft peach (dalam catalog it's called 'Floral Peach').. LOLs.. previously it was sweet pink. Somehow I thought the room is a teeny bit brighter than it was before (ke aku je yg syok sendiri? hehe..).

The new bed is arriving sometime next week. The furniture shop has earlier sent the dressing table, the side table, and the towel rack. So.. tunggu saja laa katil baru.
Yes, I went to Aussino again yesterday. But somehow things are just not as attractive when there wasn't any sales / promotions. LOLs!

Today went to Ikea. Hehehe.. Wanted to buy some wicker / rattan baskets for storage (for kitchen, for my room). A few caught my eyes lah. But when we went to the 'marketplace' to pick them up, I thought the finishing wasn't as nice as I'd like them to be. In the end, tak jadi beli.

Maybe rezeki takde kat Ikea this time.
InsyaAllah will look at other places lah.. Someone suggested Nilai 3 - apparently there were quite a selection of rattan products. Soon. Perhaps next weekend, coz I know my cousin Inn is also interested to look around in Nilai 3 :))

Hmm.. I gotta get some beauty sleep. This morning woke up early, and together with Ya, we prepared breakfast for Mak & Abah - Ya made 'lempeng' and I cooked sardines. YUMMYYY!

"Don't Give In To The Madness"

2006-05-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

Someone forwarded this to me recently.
I guess I just have to post this one, here.

Serves as a reminder to everyone.. especially more so to me.

Enjoy.

And.. don't give in to the madness...

* * *

"It is madness...

To hate all roses
because you got scratched with one thorn...

To give up on your dreams
because one didn't come true...

To give up on your efforts
because one of them failed...

To condemn all your friends
because one betrayed you...

Not to believe in love
because someone was unfaithful, or didn't love you back...

To throw away all your chances to be happy
because you did not succeed on the first attempt...

I hope that as you go on your way
you don't give in to madness.

Remembering always...

Another chance may come up.
Another friend.
A new love.
A renewed strength.

Be persistent.

Look for happiness in everyday..."

- Author Unknown -

* * *

Labour Day weekend - busy busy busy!

2006-05-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

It's been a very busy long weekend.

I've managed to clean up a lot of stuff from my room. And trust me, when I say a lot, it means A WHOLE LOT! LOLs.. Any of The Girls can verify this. They've seen my room before (both in UK and Malaysia).. hehe..

Even I was surprised at the amount of rubbish bags (big ones, mind you!) that I took out from the room. Sheesh.. that just shows how much junk stuff I've been keeping in my room! Hehehhe..
Well.. they say.. get rid of the old stuff, and make room for new ones eh? That's exactly what I'm doing now!

On Saturday afternoon I went to Aussino. Got a bedsheet set for Ya (Mak has a quilt / bed throw which she's giving to Ya, so.. for now, it's just a bedsheet set for my sister).
And bought a quilt (in UK, I used to call it duvet. I still do, sometimes hehe), plus a quilt cover set. White/pink with dark pink rose prints. Aww.. how feminine! That's exactly how I felt for the past 2 days.. sebab dah 2 nights tido pakai quilt baru hahahaha!!

Also, I immediately signed up to be Linen Lover Members hehehe.. would anyone want to willingly miss out on the additional 10% off - on top of the 30% discount that Aussino is offering?? Hehe.. apalagi.. terus jadi member la!

I'm going again to Aussino. Very soon! hehe..
I think I'll be having dept lunch tomorrow.. Hmm, if that place ada Aussino, wouldn't it be just lovely? ;))

* * *

Sunday was spent mengemas bilik (this time sort out apa cadar2 / selimut / pillow cases / table cloths yg takmau lagi.. banyak betul we decided to give away), melayan tetamu (Mak Ton, Lene & Wewe came and went "oooh" and "aaah" hehehe... I swear it, they're soo cute!), got prepared in case banjir at our area (alhamdulillah tak masuk rumah, just naik sikit kat garage je..), went out for dinner with Mak Abah, and slept early - penat lah!

* * *

Today woke late (ish.. teruk betul aku nih) and had late brunch after continuing some 'mengemas' inside the room (told'ya, my room has too much stuff. Serious babes, 3 hari pun tak settle lagi.. ini ada about 10% to go lagi..), went to Jusco and did some serious shopping for facial products. Hehe.. the staff at Clinique counter must love me very much! LOLs.. Used the 'privileged day' voucher - Mak Abah bought some clothes and household items.

Petang went to KLCC, met up with Lene and her 2 boys and Lene's brother - we watched The Wild (ni sebab nak bawak the kids keluar la ni hehe..). Balik rumah, lepas Isya' ingat nak sambung sikit mengemas bilik.. tapi tak larat nak tengok bilik dah (hahahaha! jelak dah tau!) so I decided to pamper my face a bit hehehe..

* * *

I think tomorrow's going to be a looooooonnnggggg day (((sigh)))
Berat betul nak warm up engine "kerja" after a long weekend eh?
;P

Listening to: Dealova - by Once

2006-04-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

Currently hooked on this Indonesian song, sung by Once (pronounced on-che) of the group Dewa. I think it's from a movie called Dealova.

For lack of words to share what's up with me lately.. I'm going to put up here this song that I'm crazy about..

* * *

Dealova - by Once (OST Dealova)

Aku ingin menjadi
Mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
Aku ingin menjadi
Sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu

Karena langkah merapuh
Tanpa dirimu
Oh
Karena hati tlah letih

Aku ingin menjadi
Sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau sentuh
Aku ingin kau tau
Bahwa aku selalu memujamu

Tanpamu sepinya waktu
Merantai hati
Oh
Bayangmu seakan-akan..

Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
Yang memanggil rinduku padamu
Seperti udara yang kuhela
Kau selalu ada

Oh..

Hanya dirimu
Yang bisa membuatku tenang
Tanpa dirimu
Aku merasa hilang
Dan sepi..
Dan sepi...

Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
Yang memanggil rinduku padamu
Seperti udara yang kuhela
Kau selalu ada

Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
Yang memanggil rinduku padamu
Seperti udara yang kuhela
Kau selalu ada

Selalu ada...
Kau selalu ada..
Selalu ada..
Kau selalu ada...

* * *

Go ahead and listen to the song, if you can find it.

Nice sesangat .. I tell you!
(Note: "Nice sesangat" is purely MY verdict of this song. Hehe.. so feel free to share what you think :D)

Next stop: Aussino!

2006-04-23T22:57:00.000+08:00

I'm not sure if I've shared this, but shopping (and window shopping too!) for beddings is one of my fave things. :))

I've been surveying around for quilts, and quilt cover sets.
Almost grabbed something when I was in Ikea the other day.. Tapi changed my mind coz at that time the renovation was still heavy in progress. Takde tempat nak letak the new things hehehe..

Now that I've started to get rid of some old stuff, I'm definitely making room for new ones (LOLs!!!)

Still have to do away with the vanity table, and the 2 racks for clothes.. Maybe the bedside (small) cabinet too lah.
Hmm.. Hopefully things will be settled by next weekend, insyaAllah :)

I'm in love with Aussino's quilt covers.. uhuhuhuh... Their new range (Spring Summer 2006) is apparently out (though not sure dah hit Aussino's stores ke belum).

I'll be getting a quilt and 1 set of cover, well, for a start lah. And getting a set of cover for my parents' room.
And maybe get 1 set for Ya too.. hmm, an early gift for her special day? Ntah lah. Hehe.. possible.. :D

I'm on another round..

2006-04-18T02:01:00.000+08:00

...of antibiotics and painkiller.
They help to dull some pain in me.. (yeah, I'm still not feeling that well..)

But I guess for some other kinds of hurting, painkillers just won't do eh?

* * *

I'm off to Bangi in the morning, for some briefing session over there.
Hmm... that's gonna hold back some of my work I guess.

This week will be chaotic, that's my bet. With the monthly meeting just one week away, and deadlines to meet, I'm wondering how am I supposed to get completely rested and recover from any kind of sickness.

* * *

Hmm... I wonder if it hurts to remove the tonsils?

2006-04-06T22:07:00.000+08:00

"Tak sangka sukai seseorang adalah begitu sakit dan begitu sengsara.
Tapi saya tetap tak dapat hentikan..
Saya tak dapat hentikan diri sendiri dari mendekati kamu.."

Dialog (translated into Malay language) taken from Full House, a Korean series I've been absorbed with for the past few days.

Over the weekend and for the past few days, I think I cried a bucketful while watching the VCDs. OMG.. this story is one weepy one, filled with ups and downs of emotions.

So absorbed that I was with Full House (with the crying, laughing, cursing, more crying, grinning like an idiot, crying and crying..) sampai kena marah lah dengan Mak ehehehhehe.. Oh yeah, she was also scolding me coz I was stuck for hours in front of the laptop - not doing the ironing, not really interested to eat.. just melekat depat screen..
No wonder kena marah LOLs..

I think the story is sweet. Truthfully, the storyline is a simple one - simple and sweet.

Somehow the story really touched something deep inside me.
Or maybe it's all the emotions I can see on the faces of those actors / actresses. I can even relate to a few scenes in the movie..

As for the ending, I really love it!
It made me really 'jatuh cinta' for the hero. Heheheheh...
He was wayyy too cute!

* * *

Joy, tq tq tq for 'forcing' me to borrow Full House from you.
Kkekekeke!
Aku pinjam lagi bleh? Nak tengok 2nd round ehekss!!

No updates. Guilty again!

2006-04-04T00:10:00.000+08:00

Aiseh..

It's honestly never an intention to neglect this blog.

I've been... mm.. distracted lately.

Lots of things are happening. Some planned. Some not. Some purposely taken up to distract myself from other .. stuff.

Alhamdulillah my err swollen tonsils are swollen no more. Hmm, I'm supposed to keep handy some sugar-free lozenges (maybe letak a couple kat office?). I think ada balance lagi from that visit to the hospital.

* * *

A most beloved friend told me recently:
"He is your forbidden fruit. Consciously, or unconsciously, you are attracted to him. Or his mind."

Honestly I was taken aback for a second at her choice of words. "Forbidden fruit" ? Like.. hehehe drama a bit ek? Hihiihih... :D

But after thinking about it, maybe she got it right. Gosh I don't know.

OK fine, I do know.

Forbidden fruit is.. well.. forbidden.

Duly noted, my dearest. Duly noted.

* * *

Err.. I cut my hair. No don't ask me how it looks like now. Or previously either.

OK Yam. Breathe deeply. Inhale.. exhale.. and say this out loud:
"I do not regret cutting my hair. I do not regret cutting my hair. I do not regret. No regrets. None!"

(((sigh)))

One busy weekend

2006-03-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

It certainly was one busy weekend.

On Saturday, Inn & I went to the dentist - though thank goodness neither of us need to do any 'tampal gigi' hehe.. That certainly would've spoiled our lunch!

Saturday night, Inn, Lene, Boy and I managed to catch a movie. We watched "Inside Man" (hmm.. there wasn't that many good ones to choose from).

Ooh, after initially being a bit sceptical (moreover since I was the who chose the movie), the movie turned out to be very OK. Some actions, a bit of twist here and there, definitely good acting - especially the leads: Denzel Washington, Clive Owen, Jodie Foster.

I enjoyed the movie, it certainly kept me at the edge of my seat more than once.

* * *

On Sunday, Inn fetched me and we both went to Sheils place. Hehehe.. macam selalu je pergi rumah Sheils hehehehe.. (yes hunny, we both love your place!)

Sheils cooked lunch! Hehehe.. Kenyang sangat makan.
Then watched a bit of TV. And went to hunt for stuff kat 'Pasar Sehari'.. unfortunately pasar tutup at 4pm. And we were there around 5! Takpe takpe.. next time lah, InsyaAllah :))

Went to Alamanda and had gooooooood dinner kat one place called The Coast. I think the food is good, really sedap I tell you hehe..

Last stop before going back to KL: Rina's house. Saja menjenguk her and the kids and her hubby. Tak puas rasanya coz kejap sangat. Sorry dearest, InsyaAllah next time I'm in Putrajaya area, I'll be spending longer time with you :))

* * *

I'm still having bad coughing fits throughout today..
I even thought of taking another EL. Tapi, I guess in my head I knew there would be lots of things waiting for me at work..

Which is true lah.

*sigh*
And I've only been away for one bloody day je.

Unwell

2006-03-27T14:10:00.000+08:00

I'm not feeling well - kira demam lah agaknya.
Had breakfast and took medicine at 8.45am camtuh, and slept from 9am++ till around 1.15pm.

Another dose is due shortly, so I think I'll be sleeping again until before maghrib.

Have a nice week ahead, everyone.

I hope mine will get better soon.

LRT talks..

2006-03-23T20:34:00.000+08:00

Two girls.. I'd say mid-twenties camtuh. Obviously on the way home from work. Both nicely dressed - one in a smart pantsuit (Girl 1), another in a blue baju kurung (Girl 2)..

Girl 1: (while standing) Kau tau.. something to do with Sultan Selangor laa agaknya..
Girl 2: (sitting down) Sultan Selangor? Oh.. Khir Toyo tuh?
Girl 1: Eh no lah..
Girl 2: (at the same time) Eh bukan.. itu Menteri Besar.. hmm.. sultan?

Me: (sitting 2 seats away from Girl 2, and my thoughts are in my head only laa..) *OMG OMG.. must not laugh. Must. Not. Laugh...* (while struggling not to roll my eyes at Girl 2)

* * *

Agree with Cik Nab.
If we were to write about what we encounter in LRT, it'll be a book!

So I did it..

2006-03-21T22:30:00.000+08:00

I went with the 'confrontation' choice.

Honestly, I'm never good with confrontations. What limited experience I had, I'm normally the one sobbing and crying my heart - and I'm the innocent party. (kelakar, kan?)

I decided that a gentle confrontation was appropriate.

But... as expected, the person denied most of the things I said / asked about. Although some portions that person did admit.. I thought it was kinda half-hearted. Macam trapped gitu confession dia.

I just hope I've driven my points and my concerns into that person's head & heart laa.

Hopefully both of us come out of this episode.. well, unscathed.
And let this be (another) lesson for that person. Hmm, maybe for me too..

Oh well.

What would you do..?

2006-03-20T23:38:00.001+08:00

If you found out something about someone close to you.. something I think that person would rather keep a secret.. what would you do?

Confront that person?
Just let it pass by?

If confront.. how would you do it?
A subtle hint?
An outright burst of anger?
Make up a story about yourself being in that person's shoes, pretending to ask that person for advise (and hope that.. well, that person can at least see the similarities and realise that you're actually referring to that person..)

Or should you tell someone else? Confide in another person?
And if yes.. who would you confide with?
A common friend?
Someone who doesn't know this person - at least their feelings won't be biased eh?

What would you do...?

Blogthings: What Hit Song of 2005 Are You?

2006-03-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

OK, so maybe it's more than halfway past March 2006 already.. but I can't help but wanting to share this blogthings' quiz I did today..

* * *

Your 2005 Song Is

Since You've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson

"But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on"

In 2005, you moved on.

What Hit Song of 2005 Are You?

* * *

I have moved on.

An open letter..

2006-03-15T23:11:00.000+08:00

...to someone precious

* * *

dearest friend..

you keep telling yourself: 'this is nothing. i can leave anytime'
but the truth is.. you've been kidding yourself.
probably just to spare your heart the pain.

the truth is, you're soo deep in trouble.

you and her.. will never be together.

you know it.
she knows it.
and i know it too..

i can see it in your eyes, how your face softens when you talk about her. how you smile without realising it.. when you're just about to tell me a joke she mentioned to you earlier today.

but you see, my dear.. sometimes, some things are just not meant to be.
even if you keep chanting in your heart, praying vigilantly that things will be different someday.. somehow..
even when you could be the best boyfriend / lover / husband any girl could ever dream of..

my guess is.. she has already given her heart to someone else.

walk away now.. while you still can.

staying will only spell heartache for you.. and i cannot bear to see that happen to you.

there will be another, who will make you feel alive, who will happily give her heart to you, who will speak of you with a smile in her face and stars in her eyes.

i'm looking forward to that moment. and I'll pray that it won't be too far from today...

yours truly,
yam

* * *

Happy Me :-))

2006-03-12T18:30:00.000+08:00

It's my birthday today :D

My birthday wishes & prayers came as early as last Wednesday (8th March). It was a nice surprise very early in the morning, before the sun came up that day.

To everyone who wished & prayed for me on this wonderful day (or any other days, actually!), I thank you all from the bottom of my heart.

To The Girls, thank you so very much for the cake and the song and your beloved company. I love you girls!

To my secondary school girls, thank you for the karaoke session and for the special song dedicated to me! Hehehe.. Love you, muahhs!

To a close friend, thank you for the talk-talk-talk-talk and driving me around town. Thank goodness we didn't get lost that time. (OK OK, so yes you're a good driver :P) I guess I needed that outing with you, more than I wanted to admit. (hmm, isn't this "admitting it"...?)

To a beloved, dearest friend, you do know me well, don't you? I still cannot believe you can see straight through me! Hahahahah...

2006-03-07T23:21:00.000+08:00

Hope to update soon.

f.0.u.R - I've been tagged!

2006-02-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

I was tagged in Superfluous Babe's post.. so, here's my answer (Axuerra! I know I haven't posted the one you've tagged me, tapi yang tu macam susah nak jawap :( Tungguuuu.. hehe)

Four Jobs I Have In My Life
1) Currently - one local bank with HQ in KL. 'Nuff said :P (hmm.. diam tak diam, dah 5 1/2 years kat sini. how time flies)
2) Computer Teacher - on computer centre for kids in Ampang Point area (after graduate, while waiting for a "proper" job.. yeah I enjoyed this job, but well.. the pay wasn't enough and there wasn't any career prospect)
3) Strawberry picking - serious!! (Done somewhere in Newcastle area, while waiting for graduation day. Not that I made much money, but at least it bought some food home)
4) Temp clerk at one insurance company in KL (during 1998 summer break when I came back to KL. I flew to Newcastle in September 1997, spent Ramadhan and beraya there, got seriously homesick, decided to come back to KL during summer. So.. I worked laa... for about 3 month. Gaji kat KL at least supported my daily expenses.)

Four Movies I Can Watch Over and Over
(Too many to list laaa... apasal 4 jer?)
1) Finding Nemo
2) Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham
3) The Wedding Date
4) 10 Things I Hate About You
(Also Mr & Mrs Smith, Ada Apa Dengan Cinta, 50 First Dates, Monsters Inc, The Matrix (the 1st movie only), X-Men and X-2, Lara Croft Tomb Raider (the 1st movie), The Sound Of Music, Just Like Heaven, You've Got Mail, Sleepless In Seattle, The Parent Trap (the one with Lindsay Lohan), Notting Hill hehehe... ni kes tak puas hati sebab boleh list 4 movies jer :P)

Four TV Shows I Love To Watch
1) Medical Investigation
2) CSI: Crime Scene Investigation / CSI: Miami
3) Monk
4) Amazing Race

Four Places I've Lived
1) Gombak / Setapak (Trust me, my housing area is really in the middle of these two places ehhehehe)
2) Fenham, Newcastle Upon Tyne, UK
3) Ampang (Can't recall the name of the place)
4) Jalan Maktab (not sure if the name of the road has been changed)

Four Places I've Been On Vacation To
1) Kota Kinabalu
2) Brisbane / Gold Coast (well, short as it was, the trip was definitely a vacation to me
3) Kota Kinabalu
4) London (considering I was living in Newcastle - up north - so a trip down to London is definitely a vacation hehe)

Four Places I'd Rather Be In
1) Makkah
2) Madinah
3) Scotland (I still cannot get over the fact that Sheils and I had to stay behind in Newcastle while some friends enjoyed themselves tremendously in Scotland. JEALOUSSSS tau! Sheils & I spent those few days watching one movie after another, until there's nothing left at Warner Village to be watched! LOLs...)
4) KL - well, here at home to be precise :D It's true.. I do love this place hehe.. although I wouldn't mind if there were less traffic jam. Hmm.. I wouldn't mind to be in Putrajaya too :D I'll put that as No. 5. Hehhee..

Four of My Favourite Food
1) Mak's cooking (LOLs..) - sambal goreng (daging, tempe, tauhu, udang. NO soohoon / kacang panjang pls. tq) / rendang daging hitam / ketupat daun palas (a.k.a ketupat pulut) / ayam panggang / sambal udang + petai / gulai kuning daging + cendawan butang / rebung masak gulai kuning / ayam masak merah (Eh, ini macam dah lebih 4 je ni.. LOLs!)
2) Baked macaroni / baked pasta - sorry.. walaupun sounds like angkat bakul, but I honestly love this dish I cook... Hhahahaha!!
3) Dome's Spaghetti Spicy Olio, with beef bacon bits (alamak.. terliur laa..)
4) Crispy potato skin (so far, the best is at Victoria Station)

Four Websites I Visit Daily
1) Err.. the company's website (ni by default kat office.. so terpaksa laa bukak website ni)
2) Bank Negara Malaysia (you can laugh, but it's true hehe..)
3) My blog
4) Sudoku (http://www.websudoku.com) and Kakuro (http://www.kakurolive.com) websites

Four Victims To Do This Tag
(ONLY if you're comfortable doing it. Hehe.. otherwise.. takyah, k?)
1) Sheils
2) Nour
3) Mel
4) Axuerra (LOLs.. girl, I'm tagging you back! ;D )

* * *

Have just finished watching "The Notebook"..
OMG OMG OMG.. I will SO blog about this movie.. soon!

Book: Love Rules by Freya North

2006-02-26T17:22:00.000+08:00

I think a good writer is someone who can deliver his/her story - good storyline, good characters in the story, interesting writing, at least enough to get the reader flip to the next page.

A great writer has the above, plus the ability to make the reader / audience / listener connect emotionally with the characters. Feel the highs and lows of the storyline. Eager to turn the page to find out "What now?" and "OMG OMG! What's gonna happen?!?!" and "I can't believe she did THAT!! What if he knew? She is SO dead!" hehe..

The past few visits to Kinokuniya and MPH have led me to grab the book 'Love Rules' by Freya North, but every single time I would be putting it back on the shelf - I don't know why I didn't buy it before.
And after reading it, I thought to myself "Why the hell didn't I buy this book sooner??"

I like the storyline, I love the characters in the book. And the way Ms North writes, I'm sooo tempted to skip some chapters, just so I know what's going to happen. Hehe.. you can say sometimes I'm half mad with the suspense.

Littered with funny parts here and there, I even caught myself grinning while reading this book in the LRT (Ahh.. I don't care what people think. I'm enjoying the book! Hehehehhe..!)

The book tells of the lives of 4 main characters - Thea, Alice, Saul and Mark. And how their lives entertwined with one another.
Some moral issues were raised, and I must say there were a couple issues which I certainly did not agree - on the way they were tackled.

I cried reading some parts of the book, they were filled with raw emotions that I could help but feel sad for the characters involved.

This is a good read, of course.
In the end, love doesn't necessarily rule, but it sure plays a big part.

And if you do get this book, just be prepared for the rollercoaster ride of emotions.

Monday night outing

2006-02-20T23:57:00.000+08:00

It's only Monday, and earlier today I made plans to meet up with Joy, Ta and Along hehe..

We went to Kg Baru for some long awaited dinner outing. Ingatkan nak suruh Ta "open table" malam ni - almaklum lah rezeki murah lately nih.. Tapi rupanya takder rezeki kitorang malam ni hehe.. Tunggu 3 months, kata Ta.
No worries Ta. Kitorang tuntut tau lagi 3 bulan. Justtt before Joy naik pelamin ahaks!!

Also asked Yus, Linda, Rock and Zief to join us for dinner at Kg Baru. But none of them could make it - perhaps another time eh?
Although.. the 4 of us who did make it to the dinner went for a drive to GE Mall - and met Zief for a while. Hmm.. dah lama gak rupanya tak gathering eh. We should do it soon. VERY soon!

After the impromptu visit, we went to McDee's drive through and got some desserts ehehe.. Kenyang-kenyang pun, still ada tempat for ice cream eh? ;P
And we also made plans for next week.
Wednesday night. Right?

Hmm.. should I stay off iced-drinks for the next few days until Wednesday? Haahahaha!! I'm gonna need my voice, kan? ;))

Movie Marathon - Prime, Derailed, Firewall

2006-02-20T13:53:00.000+08:00

Although this happened 2 weekends ago, I'm only getting to post up something about my movie marathon with Lene.

We watched:

(1) Prime (11.45am)
Arrived at KLCC a bit late.. so we missed about 20mins of the movie. Duduk-duduk je diorang dah jumpa (Uma Thurman and Brian Green-something kot.. Hahaha..). Best movie ni.. some funny parts pun ada.
I can't believe that quite a lot of scenes tak kena potong hahaha.. If you ask me now, I can't recall what's the movie's rating, although I honestly thought it's U (which means.. it's a bit 'adult' laa gak if kids were to watch it). The ending was... well unexpected, and a bit thought-provoking la. It definitely made me think.

Verdict: Worth watching. I'm giving it a 6.8/10.

- (2.15pm) Lunch break. Then, book-reading session kat Kinokuniya - we had way too much time before next movie. Even managed to finish skimming through the book "The Dog Walker"! Hehe..

(2) Derailed (4.40pm)
Ni kira terpaksa tengok, coz we had soo much time to kill PLUS we couldn't get tickets for "Memoirs of a Geisha".
It starred Clive Owen, Jennifer Aniston, and the girl from Alias, the one that Vaugh married tuh - the bitch ekekekekekk.. sorry, I love Sydney Bristow. So.. the girl that Vaugh married is of course to me the bad one - yeah yeah I'm biased here :P. But in this movie ni she's a good person, so.. hehehe.. I like her in this movie la :D
Based on title, I thought it was about keretapi terbabas. Tapi.. hmmm.. jauh panggang dari api laa.

I definitely DO NOT recommend this movie. Cukup lah aku sorang buang duit hahahaha..

Verdict: I don't like it. Dealt with too much negative vibes: Murder, cheating, adultery, lying, embezzlement, swindling, among other things. Of coz ada some good stuff also.. but sikit sgt sampai tak ingat what they were haha.. Lene said while we were watching the movie: "We are soo going to Hell with the kinds of movies we watch!!" Ouch.
Sib baik after movie that ada heart-to-heart session with Lene. Kira cleansing sket la tu hahaha...
I'm only giving it 3.5/10.

Hmm.. if this is the acting career Jennifer Aniston was talking about.. hmmmm... Kesian lah dia. I think this movie didn't do THAT well kat US. Collection of something around US$20mil je kot, or was it only US$2mil?? (by Hollywood's standard, that's considered sikit la kan?)
Anyway, she's still somehow too much of a Rachel la.

- (6.40pm) Dinner break. McDee je - I had Double Cheeseburger, Lene: Filet-O-Fish. Plus that heart-to-heart session with Lene. We both needed that!

3) Firewall (9.10pm)
With Harrison Ford (yummylicious!), Paul Bettany (I think this is the bad guy from Terminator 2).
Best la. Fast-paced jugak - with some funny parts, and some really frustrating scenes hehe.. sebab they don't turn out the way I expected. So frust laa...
Storyline.. I think most of us can relate to, well.. somehow.
Some twists in the plot, so I was quite on the edge of my seat gak lah. Pastu ada a few twists which led me to the wrong conclusions hehehehe...

Verdict: I like this movie! I'm giving it 7.5/10.

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There...
It feels like I haven't done a movie review for quite a while eh? :P

Next up? Probably "Casanova".
Anxiously waiting for "Pirates of the Carribean: Dead Man's Chest", "X-Men 3", and "Da Vinci Code".

Come Away With Me...

2006-02-17T20:46:00.000+08:00

I'm in the mood for Norah Jones...

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Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song

Come away with me on a bus
Come away where they can’t tempt us
With their lies

And I wanna walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high
So won’t you try to come

Come away with me and we’ll kiss
On a mountain top
Come away with me
And I’ll never stop loving you

I wanna wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I’m safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me

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I almost broke rule #1 !!

2006-02-15T21:21:00.000+08:00

Oh yes I did.

"What's rule #1?" I hear you ask.
Biasalah..

"Never contact the ex."

Relax lah Anne, I said I almost broke the rule. ALMOST lah.. hehe
I tak call him pun.

Err.. but I have to admit. Twice I stared at his name / number in my mobile's phonebook. Almost pressed the green button on my phone. Almost..
*sigh*

I'm blaming it on that blasted day in February, where ladies who carried hand bouquets or anything valentine's-gift-like, somehow have this look of pity / smug / poor-you-singles-out-there stare .. everytime they looked at girls who didn't have anything red / pink in their hands.
Where the gentlemen who bought these ladies the bouquets or v'day gifts.. either looked a bit miffed ('cause he had to fork out plenty of cash) or looked smug as he thinks everyone will think he's a good partner (well, in reality, would you even notice him? Or her? I'd be noticing the bouquet coz it's irritatingly huge hahaha...)

Oh my.. to give in to temptation last night..
I'm somewhat proud to say: I didn't cave in.
Thank goodness for small strengths.

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Oh well. The day came and gone. And I survived.
And so did so many other people out there.

Hmm.. I survived despite the so many versions of this question: "So.. how did / are you going to celebrate valentine's day?"
*sigh*
All I could say: I didn't / I don't.
And smile sweetly (even if it's a forced one :P )

Post-AJL 20 ramblings

2006-02-09T08:39:00.000+08:00

(hehe.. bear with me!)

1) What's with Zainal's "watchhaaa!" at the beginning of his song 'Gaia' ? Hehehe.. I almost fell out of the couch laughing at him. Zainal stole Hani's trademark!

2) My sis & I made this theory: Cheryl Samad and Ally Iskandar have something going on!! We both just cannot get this scene out of our heads...
(Ally was holding up the CD 20 years of AJL)
Cheryl: Terbalik tu, sayang..

Hehehe.. Imagine that. On prime time live TV! What a way to let the cat out of the bag eh? ;-))

(Although Anne said something along the line of: "Tak kot, she probably calls everyone sayang.." Alah woman, kasik chance laa hehehe.. I like them together!)

3) M. Nasir was in a good mood. Did you see him sing in the 'medley' session? Macam ceria je.. Or maybe he was happy with Mawi's performance that night? Hehe.. Entah lah..
Anyway, now I can't stop singing 'Phoenix Bangkit' in my head..

4) Ning's voice was amazingly good, I love it even more than in her album hehe.. I thought in the album macam nak semput je. Although I still maintain that she can't really hit the high notes.. But gotta admit, her performance was definitely different. She was dressed in her baju kurung (a quite simple one pulak tu) and without any backup singers / troops of dancers. For a while I didn't believe she was only going to wear that baju kurung - I seriously expected she's gonna err.. change costumes to maybe a diva-like evening dress. But that did not happen eh.
The performance? It's ermm... quite un-Ning.

5) Bergenang airmata bila dengar Jac singing 'Wajah'.. I didn't think she needed the children in the background - it was a bit distracting. But I love it still..

6) I was impressed with Hazami's performance and vocals, although I strongly feel that the unbuttoning-shirt-aka-chest-baring act was totally unnecessary. Eheks..

7) I somehow still think that Jac's vocal deserved to win. She hit the high notes without much glitch. And it felt like the song Gemilang was really made for her.. I think only Jac can carry the song wonderfully.
But Mak justified Hazami's winning by saying something like this: "He's a vocal / music teacher laa. That's his advantage over Jac. Probably his vocal control is much better than Jac."
Uhuks.. my Mak.. as always, she's got a point.

8) I cringed watching Dina and Pija singing 'Cinta Datang Lagi'. I blame those bloody outfits!

9) Hats off to Amy Search and Andy Flop Poppy for their wonderful rendition of Fantasia Bulan Madu. I thought Amy looked funky with his formal attire and unrestrained hair!
Andy pulak.. hehe.. ter"kenan" cerita Brokeback Mountain ke hapa? LOLs.. But he somehow managed to pull it off nicely laa (am talking about the outfit here :P )..

10) Still cannot drop the idea that Cheryl Samad and Ally Iskandar have something going on between them. Don't they make an adorable couple? Hehhehe..

Post holiday malaise, anyone?

2006-02-06T23:40:00.000+08:00

After the looooooongg holiday last week, I think I need some time to get back on my feet. Need time to get my engines all up and running again eh?

Unfortunately time is not quite something I can afford right now.
I swear it, the montly meetings just keep getting set earlier and earlier with each passing month.
*sigh* Let's hope the late nights are kept to this whole week only. Hmm, do I have to come to work this weekend? Adoi..

* * *

OK lah, a few things to settle:

1. Remind Abah to make hotel booking for his trip
- Also gotta check when exactly is his trip hehe..

2. Bring Anne's DVDs
- Sorry babe! Ni bukan intentional tau hehe.. I memang completely forgot about your DVDs! hehehe... Sorry sorry..

3. Think about J's offer to find me a date
- Hahahaha! J, I can just imagine you.. grinning like the cheshire cat! Muahs, sweet of you to offer. But.. err... lemme think! Hehehe.. And don't hold your breath for my answer. Or the picture you want. LOLs!!

4. Movie marathon with Lene
- Hmm.. choices we have?
Prime: I promised myself that I wouldn't watch the DVD.. Hehe..
Memoirs of a Geisha: Some friends said "Go read the book! It's great!" while some others said "Do NOT read the book! Nanti you'll get disappointed with the movie!".. Hehhehe... So which one nih? :P

5. I've been tagged by Axuerra!
- Hehehe.. And the topic.. OMG. Girl, you're kidding right?!?!!? 8? EIGHT? LAPAN?!??!?!?! Hhehee.. ok ok, I promise to sit down and actually materialise my thoughts into writing OK? :D But, this is a heavy topic. So, don't expect any answers soon lah. Hehehehhe..

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I'm ending this entry with a question:

When was the last time you went on a date?

Yours,
Yam

(p.s: When was the last time I went on a date? Hmmm....)

Movie - The Wedding Date

2006-02-01T21:47:00.000+08:00

I love this movie, mainly because of the mega hottie Dermot Mulroney.

OMG he is so bloody hot, I can't stop thinking about him.. hehe..
And he danced! Oh my.. he really can dance.. ((sigh))

Ya and I were thinking of signing up for dancing lessons.. kekekeke...

* * *

OK, enough fantasy on Mulroney.. (I'll be doing that in my head ;D )
Now about the movie.

I think it's a simple movie, with expected fairy-tale ending.
But I loved it still..
(1) It's entertaining
(2) It's a love story with happy ending (Goodness knows I'm in need of that right now)
(3) The two leads - Dermot Mulroney and Debra Messing - had really good on-screen chemistry.. I love their dancing scenes. And the hen party. And the one in the bathroom ehehe.. And the baseball game. And the part where he held her after that bombshell from the ex-boyfriend (he's a class-A jerk!)

I'm giving it an 8.5/10 - simply because.. I love it.

* * *

Now.. if I can only influence my dreams tonight, and dream about dancing lessons with Dermot Mulroney... Hmm..

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(Added on Thursday 2nd Feb 2006)
Hmm.. Can't resist to share some snapshots from this movie, all taken from The Wedding Date website and Yahoo! movie for The Wedding Date

Above: One of my fave scenes.. ((sigh)) I tell you, maybe I should take up Ya's offer to that dancing lessons. Hehhehe..

(Isn't he yummylicious? And isn't she gorgeous? I love seeing them as a couple :) )

Guilty of not updating

2006-01-29T16:17:00.000+08:00

Yes I am guilty.

My utmost apologies, everyone.

I've been... hmm.. too busy. And distracted with tonnes of stuff.

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To a dear friend, good luck with your latest project. Hope your sumber inspirasi brings you plenty fresh ideas, SOON!
And wishing all your projects are as 'berhantu' as some of my all-time favourites!

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For the past 3-4 days I've had this 'teringin' to eat Dome's spaghetti olio eheks.. I think I'll be getting some today :D
Probably in KLCC la. Hmm.. Or Mid-Valley? Hmm...

And no, it's NOT mengidam lah.
Chaits..

Insights from a 10 year-old boy

2006-01-18T19:18:00.000+08:00

I'm suddenly remembering the recent Eidul Adha.

I was sitting next to my cousin Lene's eldest son, Haq - he was so engrossed with the game Sims 2 on our laptop. So I was looking at the family he's been creating for the past 1 hour or so...

Me: So this is your family?
Haq: Yup. 6 of them. 2 adults, 1 teenager, and 3 children.
Me: Wow.. ramai nye!
Haq: (Smiling, and proceeded to describe to me..) Cik Yam, ni Ayah dia, ni Mak dia. Ayah dia ada 2 anak, yang ni boy ni, and the teenager boy. Mak dia pun ada 2 anak, yang ni girl Mak dia dukung, and yang ni also girl Ayah dia tengah dukung.
Me: ............

OMG.. I'm telling you guys. I was rendered speechless. And I mean.. really speechless.

Here was a 10-year-old boy.. who so calmly went on and explain that he created (albeit in a Sims game) a family consisting of a couple, each with 'broken family' from previous marriages / relationships.

I felt that there was a huge lump stuck in my throat, for I really cannot say anything to respond to what he just told me. I just sat there like an idiot, staring at Haq. And he simply carried on, busy creating the perfect home for his 'family'.

For he has basically described his own existance.

You see.. My cousin Lene married young. But something couldn't be resolved along the way, and the marriage didn't work out. The marriage produced 2 boys - Haq and Fir. The two boys live with Lene, but they do spend a lot of time with their father's side of the family.

Manja as my nephew Haq might be sometimes, this incident made me realised: Haq is actually very well into his path of growing up. It seems that he and his younger brother Fir have both already accepted (long ago) that they have 2 homes to go to - one with the mom, Lene, and another with the father (and his new family - he has remarried since). I think the stepmom and the father are now having children of their own.

In some ways, I think I've been leading a more sheltered life than this young boy. Haq suddenly seems to be the grown-up here, and me the small kid, still trying to grasp the meaning of marriage, and having a family, and divorce.. among other things.

To Haq and Fir, my love to you both, lots of love.
And to Lene, your boys are very OK, don't you ever forget that. They're turning out to be quite mature for their age, but maybe it's not right to expect them to act that way the whole time eh? After all, they are still kids, kan?

My soul sisters

2006-01-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

OK, this is rare... but here goes..

These are The Girls at the recent New Year gath.
(Sorry, but I promised I'd blur the image of one Girl, as requested :-) )

Although.. ni tak cukup quorum. 3 Girls were not able to join the recent New Year gathering.
Let's hope we'll be able to take a family photo soon eh? :)

Love you girls..

p.s: Are we still on for this Friday?

[...]

2006-01-12T19:05:00.000+08:00

Been busy.
Barely had time to update.

Missing .. something.

...

...

...

Or is it someone...?

Happy 2006 :))

2006-01-03T17:49:00.000+08:00

Happy 2006 everyone.

***

The Girls gathered on 31st Dec at Rina's place. It was an absolute blast! Plenty of good food. Loads of good conversations and laughter.

The single ones decided to sleepover, and so did Mel and hubby and baby Marsya.

After much persuading, the husbands agreed to let the wives (Rina and Mel) go on a short trip to watch the fireworks.

And watched them we did. All 6 of us - Rina, Mel, Sheils, Darls, Zuec and yours truly here.

As we watched the flashes of lights across the skies, we hugged each other, and with whispers of "Happy New Year, girls" all around.. we welcomed 2006.

To everyone, may your year ahead be as wonderful as you dreamed they can be, and the company of beloved families and friends to brighten your days.

To each of The Girls, I love you all. And I pray that at the end of the day, no matter what comes your way.. your lives will always be filled with very much love, absolute joy and happiness, and pure contentment.

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Some of the food at the gath :)

Finger foods / Nasi himpit / Baked macaroni

Kuah lodeh / Kimpap @ sushi / Cheese cake / Satay + kuah kacang

With open arms.. "Welcome!"

2005-12-29T01:43:00.000+08:00

A few events to welcome hehe..
(Yes, I realise the hour is atrocious too. But I'm pledging partial insomnia hehe.. Fine, FINE. I'm off to bed after this post. I promise!!)

Firstly, I welcome (or rather, welcomed) the long weekend due to Hari Krismas. And I took Tuesday off - so it really WAS a long weekend for me!
No, I didn't go on any short vacation. I stayed at home and did a lot of catching up on the beauty sleep.

Didn't even catch any movies last weekend - although I must say after the 3-movie marathon that Lene & I had last week's Wednesday, I'm taking a short break.

(OK, digress sikit nak cerita pasal movies..
1. Aeonflux: Not bad. Although the jigsaw pieces only fit towards the end hehe.. Mula-mula a bit boring 'cause we didn't know what was going on.
2. The Chronicles of Narnia - The Lion, The Witch & The Wardrobe: Had really high expectations after seeing LOTs of promotions. The story is quite simple. Some really nice cinematography. Ending was a bit abrupt laa.. Tiba-tiba je dah habis. Hehe.. But all in all, it was an enjoyable movie.
3. King Kong: Err.. nice cinematography. Storyline? I didn't like it AT ALL! Plus some kids at the seats behind us were eating non-stop. OMG.. I think kids wouldn't enjoy this movie becoz (a) it's too long (bloody 3 hours ++ !) (b) not all of them would get the movie...
Hmm, my verdict: BORING! Rugi je RM8. I wish I had watched something else that day.

Hehe.. ok laa.. back to my post :P )

Second thing to welcome:
Sheils back from NYC!! Welcome home.. Miss you girl! (((hugs!)))

My closest friends would know this: I'm not one who expect souvenirs. You know, from anyone who goes off on a holiday, especially to foreign places.
So, eventhough I've known wayyyyyy in advanced of her trip to NYC, I didn't exactly expect any souvenirs from Sheils. Neither did I kirim for her to buy me anything while she was there.
Err, that being out in the open, that NEVER means I'll refuse any sweet momentos from anyone who remembers to buy something for me, tau!
:)) Jangan salah faham ye? Hehehe..

Thirdly:
I'm welcoming this weekend, as on 31st Dec (Saturday), I'm meeting up with The Girls, plus a sleepover at Rina's place (Erks!! Tak beli lagi ingredients for the baked macaroni. OK, esok MESTI pergi grocery shopping).
Their beloved faces would be the last things I see in 2005, and the first things in front of me, come 12.01 midnight 1st Jan'06.

Now that's a great start to a new year!

And last, but never least...
Welcome to the New Year 2006. May the dawn of 1st January brings along fresh hopes and many beautiful things to look forward too :))

(Hmm, I'm thinking of catching Harry Potter & The Goblet of Fire on Monday 2nd Jan'06 laa.. I think only available at GSC Cinemas. TGV is no longer running this movie. Hmm... Should I go to Mid Valley? Hmmm....)

At a friend's wedding, recently

2005-12-26T14:45:00.000+08:00

As promised, I'm posting a photo taken at FR's wedding, about a couple weeks ago in Ipoh.

With the Raja & Ratu Sehari

It was a lovely surprise to see some old friends at the wedding. Tapi tak sempat nak bergambar dengan everyone.. We had to make do with mana yang ada laa.

Rozy, remember my friend's comment that I share with you the other day..?
Hehe.. I still remember it whenever I look at this photo.

How it came about

2005-12-23T13:31:00.000+08:00

Someone asked me: "Why 'bluekoala'? Don't you always use 'yammster' for everything?"
Haha, very funny.. I told my friend..

But that got me thinking too: how DID I come to use the name 'bluekoala' for this blog?

The best I could come up with, is this..

YamKoala

It was the trip to Brisbane (well, the money was actually for a London trip.. which was postponed indefinitely).
I was there with Sheils, an overdue holiday. Well, for her it's partly work as she had to attend a 2-day seminar hehe..

I remember loving the visit to Lone Pine Koala Sanctuary..

And I also remember Sheils saying this: "Mi, koala tu macam tenung kau dengan penuh kasih sayang!"
LOLs..!!

Anyway, the original picture is in full colour - I was wearing a blue denim shirt and holding that koala.

Hmm.. maybe that's really how it came about... :P
(To cousin eRz: yeah, this post should've answered your question too. LOLs..!)

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Oh yeah.. since Id dah give consent letak gambar at FR's wedding.. hehe, expect it soon!

Weekend of wedding bells

2005-12-17T11:37:00.000+08:00

In an hour's time I'm attending a kenduri tunang of a school friend. Who also happens to be a sort-of-neighbour (we live in the same housing area). Who also works at the same company as I do.. Hehe..

To Linda, my doa is with you. Semoga segalanya berjalan lancar.
Jangan lupa jemput aku gi wedding kau :P

(Alamak! Have to confirm with Ta and Joy and Along and Rock. OK gotta make some calls after this..)

* * *

And tomorrow.. I'm attending a friend's wedding somewhere in Sunway. When Sheils and I went to Brisbane in 2003, he and his girlfriend (well, now she's the wife already la hehe..) were really nice and took us both around Brisbane / Gold Coast.

I'm so happy for the two of them. Perhaps we'll be seeing the little one(s) soon eh? ;-))

Oh yah. Must call Darls tonight. I'm attending the wedding with her, since Sheils is at this moment on a flight to land of FRIENDS. Hehe..

Sheils if you're reading this, enjoy Central Park hunny! Take lots of photos and show us when you're back in Malaysia!

Happy weekend people!

I went ahead and...

2005-12-12T17:27:00.000+08:00

... embarrassed myself recently (I still turn red thinking about it..)

Was on IM with a friend. I wanted to suggest a quick lunch, after which we can go our separate ways (I had another appointment somewhere).

Instead it came out to be something like: "Can we have a quickie and then go our own ways..?"

And of course he - even as busy as he was - immediately zeroed in on the word "quickie".
He must have had a field day laughing at me hehe..

Uhukss.. Malu giler..

I really meant to say quick lunch lah - after all that was the topic we were discussing about.

I don't even know how the word 'quickie' suddenly popped out.
Honest!

Off to Ipoh..

2005-12-10T13:37:00.000+08:00

Well, not today though.
Today I'm having lunch with a dear someone, then off to my facial appointment.

Tomorrow morning I'm heading to Ipoh, with Id. Err, at least I think it's Ipoh LOLs.. Or somewhere in that area. (Id, I must warn you, I'm NOT the best co-pilot tau! Hahaha.. now I wonder if we'll ever reach that place!)

One of our former classmates is having his kenduri kahwin at his hometown. The last time I saw him, he was still unattached (or so he said laa). Then during Raya month he asked for everyone's addresses, konon-konon nak datang beraya.
Well, I'll give you three chance to guess: who went ahead and believed him and gave out her home address..

:(
Yeah yeah, I do NOT take hints well. Normally I'll just be all confused or just plain ignore these hints.
Just be direct please. Thank you.

* * *

Ooh.. my lunch errr appointment is cancelled. My friend had to work extra hard lately.. kesian dia.
Hmm, looks like I'll be grabbing a bite to eat.. maybe somewhere in Sogo kot. Or maybe I should makan at Secret Recipe across the road nih. Hmm...

By the way, enjoy your weekend :))

Catching up on stuff..

2005-12-07T23:58:00.000+08:00

It's almost the end of Wednesday, and I know I'm guilty of not being a good girl and update this blog. Hehe..
Sorry, have been wayyy too busy since I came back from Singapore, both at work and at home.

I know I've been tagged by Arin's post. Uhuks.. I'll get around to doing it kay dear? Hehe.. About food pulak tuh! Cam tau-tau jer I just had food fest in Singapore. Kekekkekek...
(Eh BTW, I still don't get this word 'meme'. What does it mean exactly?)

My Singapore trip.. well it was amazing. Eventhough I only managed to meet up with a few relatives, I totally enjoyed myself.
To list everyone's name here would take ages hehe.. But thank you very very very very much for taking me around. For pampering me hehe.. and for treating me to very nice meals. I kinda told Mak Abah that I think I've put on weight while I was in Singapore. And I was there for only a little more than 2 days! LOLs..

This trip made me realise that I haven't visited some of my relatives for quite some time. Considering I have so many nenek-saudara and uncles and aunties and cousins and nieces and nephews in Singapore, I think I only met up with about 20% of around 90-odd relatives I have there (hmm, I strongly believe it's more 90-odd hehe)

Did a lot of catching up with the relatives, but I wished I could've stayed there longer.

InsyaAllah I'll be making another trip down south. Soon :-))

* * *

Talking about catching up, Sheils is here tonight, sleeping over at my place. She told me it's to make up for missing the open house the other day hehe..

It's been quite a while since I last spend some time with her alone. And I must say tonight's a good catching up session with Sheils. I really appreciate this private outing

And yes Sheils, 1 day is not enough lah. We must do this again soon.
(Hahaha.. I remember us saying something along this line masa kat Brisbane Hilton. And hunny, that was in August 2003! Adoi.. how sad is that? Don't tell me we must wait another 2 years?? :P )

Food fest in Singapore

2005-12-05T01:33:00.000+08:00

Hehehe..
Jangan lah jealous membaca the title of this post ;)

Yes, I'm in Singapore right now. Currently somewhere in Pasir Ris. I've been here since Saturday eve.

Cik Din did warn me that my visit to Singapore will be a 'food fest'. Well, a food fest it was (and will still be, tomorrow :P). I've had murtabak, chicken briyani, rojak, chicken rice, fried chicken wings, fried samosa, satay. Don't get me started on the drinks I've had! Hmm, kalau la ada appointment with the doc next week, I'll definitely fail every single test! LOL..

OMG.. banyak nya makan!! And my stay's not over yet! My flight back to KL leaves Changi Airport tomorrow afternoon. I think tomorrow morning I'm still gonna indulge myself with more delicious food hehe..

I've been making my Raya visits - unfortunately, as always, I'll never be able to cover everyone's house. That's one thing sad about my time here: it's never enough!

* * *

I still have 3 days of my annual leave to clear off by end of 2005. Hmm, wonder if I'll be making another trip down south.

I've got less than 24 hours left here in Singapore, and I still haven't met a few relatives. Which means, I'll be quite occupied tomorrow.
Plus I'll be catching a movie with 2 of my cousins here: Harry Potter movie (please do not puke, I don't have any buckets to offer you... LOLs..!). One of them suggested "The Exorcism of Emily Rose". TAKMO!! Nanti I'll be having nightmare tau!

* * *

Eh, what to buy from Singapore? So far I've only used S$10.00 hahahaha!!

Scrumptious dinner tonight!

2005-11-30T19:54:00.000+08:00

Yes I know it's rather the sinfully late hour to work.

But I'm waiting for my parents to fetch me.
Cik Din's in town, and he's treating us dinner tonight. And knowing that place, I know it's gonna be a delicious treat!

I'm salivating, just trying to imagining what I'm gonna eat tonight. I think I'll definitely go for the crispy baked potato skin.
Yummmmyyyyy!

(OK tummy, not too loud. You don't want to embarrass yourself now, do you? :P)

I've just finished watching..

2005-11-27T02:39:00.000+08:00

...the movie Notting Hill.

OMG.. this brings back wayyyy too much memories.
I love most of the songs featured in this movie's soundtrack..

(1) You've Got A Way - by Shania Twain

"You've got a way with me.. Somehow you got me to believe.. In everything that I could be.. I gotta say.. You really got a way.."

(2) Ain't No Sunshine - by Bill Withers (I think he's the original singer la. Pls pls do correct me if I'm wrong hehe)

"Ain't no sunshine when she's gone... It's not warm when she's away.. Ain't no sunshine when she's gone, And she's always gone too long anytime she goes away..."

(3) From The Heart - by Another Level

"I know you've heard these words a hundred other times before.. And you've been hurt and so you heart has chose to close the door.. Love broke your heart and brought you lies...

* * *

That's it.
I'm buying the soundtrack CD. Very, very soon!!

Listening to..

2005-11-20T00:17:00.000+08:00

.. songs from the late 90's.
Apasal aku nostalgik mode pulak ni?

* * *

(1) In Our Lifetime by Texas

(2) I Don't Ever Want To See You Again by Uncle Sam

(3) All Cried Out by Allure (& 112)

(4) I Still Believe by Mariah Carey

(5) Have You Ever by Brandy

* * *

I think all these songs were mostly aired when I was in Newcastle.

Adoi, don't tell me next song in line is "Kiss Me" by Sixpence None The Richer! LOLs.. that song is more suitable for a chirpy, perky mood. And, based on the list of songs above, I don't think so "chirpy" is the best word to describe the current mood :P

(Hmm.. where is that Kiss Me single's CD, I wonder...)

English - as broken as it gets..

2005-11-17T18:17:00.000+08:00

Ni brief one je..

I attended a briefing this morning, and I couldn't get some of what the speaker said out of my head..

"Are you understand what I'm telling?"

"It depend on what they wants..."

"You needs to understand in order to..."

She definitely had me stifling my barks of laughter in that auditorium.

I'm not saying my English is perfect, but well... I don't think you'll hear me say "You likes this dress?"

* * *

These "fine" English reminded me of the "Hello Kitty" ads plastered on several Putra LRT trains. Here's their tagline:
"Celebrating 30 years of cute"

What the...???
30 years of cute? Macam ayat tergantung je...

Imagine me telling you.. "Thank you for your kind"
(OMG, if someone tells that to me, I swear I'm gonna start wondering if I'm an alien or something...)

* * *

In view of the above, I'm going to quote a certain songstress of Malaysia:
"Thanks you."

[p.s: I'm sure you've had your fair share of broken English ... ;-)) ]

"Belalang.. oooo Belalang.."

2005-11-14T01:02:00.000+08:00

I've watched most of Allahyarham P.Ramlee's movies (starred in, directed). And quite a number of them I've seen more than a dozen times.

So.. when I watched the movie Nujum Pak Belalang earlier, I actually knew what's coming next. The next scene, the joke that's coming, the punchline, even the song!

And yet I still laugh as if I've never watched Nujum Pak Belalang before.

Dammit I'm even grinning silly now, while remembering this scene inside the cave where the thieves (played by Aziz Sattar & S.Samsuddin) were trying to divide, equally of course, the err coins they stole from the Sultan's palace.
Part of the scene went something like this (my apologies if there's any reader who cannot understand Malay language - I'm being extremely lazy to translate. Besides, I'd think the joke would be lost in translation hehehehe..)

Sudin: Satu untuk kau, satu untuk aku. Dua untuk kau, dua untuk aku. Tiga untuk kau, tiga untuk aku... Eh lepas tiga apa?
Ajis: Hentam sajalah.
Sudin: 'Hentam sajalah' untuk kau, 'hentam sajalah' untuk aku... Lepas 'hentam sajalah'?
Ajis: Bedal-lah
Sudin: 'Bedal-lah' untuk kau, 'bedal-lah' untuk aku.
Ajis: Hey dalam dunia mana ada hurup 'bedal-lah'!
Sudin: 'Hey dalam dunia mana ada huruf bedal-lah' untuk kau. 'Hey dalam dunia mana ada huruf bedal-lah' untuk aku.
Ajis: Eh-eh dia ni.
Sudin: 'Eh eh dia ni' untuk kau. 'Eh eh dia ni' untuk aku.
Ajis: Aku bagi kang!
Sudin: 'Aku bagi kang' untuk kau. 'Aku bagi kang' untuk aku
Ajis: Kepala hotak kau!
Sudin: 'Kepala hotak kau' untuk kau. 'Kepala hotak aku' untuk aku..
Ajis: Ihh..
Sudin: 'Ihh' untuk kau. 'Ihh' untuk aku.

* * *

OMG!! Kelakar giler that scene!
Everytime I think about it I will grin like an idiot. LOLs..

And I bet I'm not the only one reacting this way!

I think..

2005-11-12T03:57:00.000+08:00

...my body's in an entirely different timezone.

Came back from work around maghrib.
Fell asleep around 9pm. Woke up at midnight.

It's close to 4am now, and I cannot sleep, eventhough I'm feeling very tired.

And to make things worse, it's a working Saturday tomorrow.

Arghhhhhhhhh!!

* * *

I don't know who Mak is expecting tomorrow (err, I mean, today) & Sunday, but I saw her already finished with a batch of Rendang Daging.
Hehehhe..

Ritzz's open house is on Saturday. And MakTon's is on Sunday (well, coupled with birthday celebrations for Feeqa, Aush & MakTon).

Well, even if there were no guests coming around to 'beraya' at our house, I know I'll be having good food for these next couple of days.

Hoping you'll enjoy your weekend :)

Raya came, Raya went..

2005-11-07T23:50:00.000+08:00

I had a blast of a Raya. Although it was definitely tiring (hmm, I think age is fast catching up laa.. hehe..), I had plenty of good times. Good food (OMG.. food was amazing!), good talks, good laughs, good shows on TV, good catching-up sessions with relatives.. lots and lots of good stuff laa..

* * *

The night (or rather, couple of nights) before raya, I was sending Raya wishes to almost everyone on my mobile phonebook. Which means, if you didn't get one.. either (1) I don't have your number. Or (2) The traffic was all jammed up - hahaha! everyone was trying to send SMS's wishing selamat hari raya!
(I said almost everyone.. coz not all entries were those of mobile phone numbers la. Plus, some are not celebrating Eid Mubarak! How lah to send wishes to them?! :P)

I did get an SMS I didn't feel I was supposed to reply to. Or even acknowledge. Hmm.. did I actually acknowledge it? If I did, I must've lost my mind at that moment.
Anyway, nice of the person to wish me Selamat Hari Raya. Unfortunately, even during this holy month and auspicious day, I didn't have to heart to wish anything good for her. Yeah, I know it's bad of me. But I just didn't feel like it was worth it.

Ooh.. now that I think about it.. there were actually a couple SMS's of this sort.. Hmm..

BTW, talking about SMS's.. when I sent out the Hari Raya wishes, I wasn't expecting anyone to reply lah. It was just me wanting to send those wishes. I must say, some friends / relatives did send back some form of reply hehe.. most of which made me smile.

Although... there was one particular reply that almost made me want to swear off men forever! Arghhhhhh!!

Erm, hello?!
I said "almost". ALMOST! :P

* * *

All in all, it was a good Raya, albeit being slightly calmer (read: quieter) than last year's celebration. Unfortunately, we didn't get to take Raya pictures (and I really wanted to take one of the whole family.. takper, insyaAllah another time lah).. so, I don't think so I'll be posting any pics of me in my baju Raya *sigh*

Let's hope during the open house I'll be able to snap some shots.

* * *

Selamat Hari Raya people. It's a month-long celebration!
(Alamak.. there goes the diet plan!)

Salam Eidul Fitri

2005-10-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

I'm already on Raya leave!
Alhamdulillah the work thingy was settled yesterday.. So.. without much thought I'm starting my leave on Saturday (today lah tu.. hehe)

Last week Al asked me: "When are you going on leave?". When I told him "Friday", his reaction was something along the line of "That's 6 days before Raya. Whatcha gonna do?"
Hehe.. basically.. I'm taking things easy..

* * *

Today:
(1) Helped Mak buat kuih tat nenas. I think we'll make it again on Monday la. Just now we didn't have enough pineapple jam for the dough that Mak prepared. I think Mak will cook the pineapple jam tomorrow. Or Monday. Tak sure lah.

Yummyyyy kuih tat!

(2) Wiped the book cabinets (itupun tak habis lagi, 2 more cabinets to finish up - will do it tomorrow, Mak. I promise hehehe) plus err making sure the books themselves are not dusty.

I'm done with the middle one jer (plus the 2 CD towers laa..)

(3) Buka puasa with the schoolgirls again. Hehe.. this time, met up with Yus & family, who just came back (well, she's home for the Raya holiday) from US. Also this round, Yen & family managed to join us! Alhamdulillah, she's looking good. Hehe, no more errr 'afternoon' sickness, I hope. (Hmm, let's see if I can post some photos.. maybe in the next few days eh?)

* * *

Hmm.. tomorrow? Abah wanted to go to Ikea. Might tag along laa. LOLs.. I'm thinking of getting some new quilt-sets laa.. for Raya maybe..? ;P
Plus, InsyaAllah I'm having buka puasa with the A-Level friends. Most probably in KLCC. Hmm.. must remember to call or SMS Id tomorrow noon.

* * *

Monday.. I think I have a facial appointment. Should be done by 1.30pm. Ahh.. plenty time to get a look at the offerings around Jalan TAR then. Hehe...
Just hope I don't go on a shopping-binge laa. Koyak poket nanti!

* * *

Tuesday would be just nice to start preparing for Raya food. Hehe.. maybe will start anyam some sarung ketupat (for both ketupat nasi, and ketupat daun palas). And get the onions / shallots / garlic / ginger / etc ready.. Senang nak masak on Wednesday nanti.

* * *

Wow.. quite a number of things to be done, eih? InsyaAllah sempat lah :))

So, I'm taking this opportunity to wish everyone a very happy and blessed Eidul Fitri.
Enjoy your Raya.
And stay safe, no matter where you're celebrating this auspicious day.

Plans gone haywire

2005-10-27T19:20:00.000+08:00

Today was supposed to be my last day at work, before the long Hari Raya break.

Unfortunately, I'm still here at the office, with some work still unfinished.
(Time now is 7.15pm, and I just had my buka puasa meal consisting of 1 mug of cool water and 1 piece of Oreo.)

Hmm.. looks like I'll have to cancel my leave tomorrow and come back to work. Gotta settle these few pages of reports - it's the quarterly thing.

*sigh*
I guess that means I'll have to forget my plans to lie in bed at 9am.

Alamak! If I'm at work tomorrow, that means I'll have to cancel my facial appointment too.

Argghhhhhhhhhhh!!!

*OK, breathe. In... Out...*

Hmm... looking at the bright side, tomorrow I'll be able to get my order of Macadamia choc from one friend here. Hehehhehe...

Now.. that's something definitely sweet to look forward to!
(Eh, Mr Nun. Want some? You kena datang raya my house, baru boleh kasi sikit! :P )

Buka puasa gathering @ Nelayan Titiwangsa

2005-10-24T15:30:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. we were loud.
Laughing, talking, eating, catching up, snapping photos.. busy with the steamboat (with "Aku nak udang!" and "Aku nak ketam!") and food and drinks and kuih raya samples..

Eventhough we've said goodbye to secondary school life 11 years ago, it seemed like our teenage years were not too long ago..

* * *

Date: Monday 17th Oct 2005
Venue: Nelayan Titiwangsa (hehehe.. nak jugak dekat dengan sekolah!)

2 Moms & a girl :P

Oii.. sibuk benar dengan cameraphone!

Lovely ladies.. hehehe

Even more lovely ladies!
(Eh, can you guess which one is me?)

Err.. believe it or not, after Nelayan, we
made a move to Restoran Kg Pandan @ Jln
Yap Kwan Seng for teh tarik

More group photo

* * *

Yes, we DID have a teh tarik session right after the buka puasa at Nelayan Titiwangsa. And yours truly here even had some maggi goreng! (Hmm, and I thought I already ate A LOTTT masa kat Nelayan! Hehehehe, no wonder some had surprise looks on their faces when I ordered maggi goreng at the mamak restaurant!)

All in all.. it was definitely a blast that night. Hopefully we'll have more of such get-togethers in the future, yeah?

(OK Ta, we're supposed to have another buka puasa when our friend from US comes back, right? PLEASE confirm cecepat. hehe.. If it's this weekend, let me know! Boleh ler aku arrange transport ku hehe..)

Blog neglected.. ish..

2005-10-23T23:24:00.000+08:00

Err.. I think I've been neglecting this blog for a while dah.. Sorry sorry.

Lame as it may sound, I have been busy with the monthly reporting. Plus additional reports due each quarter. So... I'm blaming it on err.. hehehehe

Last weekend was filled with plenty good times!
Saturday 15th Oct was buka puasa gathering (pot luck, of course!) with The Girls. We had it at Mel's place. BEST sangat! Hehe.. lots of food (trust me, everyone was soooo silent - enjoying themselves.. LOLs..). Murn dropped a surprise! She ordered a Secret Recipe's Oreo Cheesecake to be delivered to Mel's house - for our desserts! It was soooooo yummy...!

* * *

Sunday 16th Oct was buka puasa gathering at home. Came back from Mel's place around noon Sunday (hehe.. slept at Mel's place on Saturday night, plus bersahur together!), and helped Mak with cooking: Gulai ikan dengan peria, fried chicken wings, gulai pucuk ubi dengan telur, petai goreng dengan ikan bilis + cili api.
Then, started with the Roti Kentang.

Hehe.. yes, we made roti kentang. Unfortunately, they were snapped up so fast, I didn't even have time to take any photos to show you guys. Hehe.. sorry laa.. next time I'm making them (OMG, ntah2 next year!), I'll try to take some pics hehe..

* * *

Monday 17th Oct was buka puasa gathering with the schoolgirls. We had it at Nelayan Titiwangsa - a buffet + steamboat. Havoc! LOLs.. We were wayyy loud for a bunch of girls! Hehehe..
Oh yeah, will be posting some photos soon on this gathering @ Titiwangsa.

This gathering allowed me to be a bit nostalgic.. Schooldays were fun, I tell you.. But somehow when I was experiencing those days, all I could wish for was for them to be over. Macam tak sabar-sabar nak grow up and go out into the 'real world'.
Little did I realise that those schooldays were part of the real world that I wanted badly.

* * *

I think I'll be having 2 more buka puasa gathering coming my way. OMG! Do I even have the time?! LOLs.. Better make arrangement quickly, it's almost the end of Ramadhan!

"Decribe me in ONE WORD, just one!"

2005-10-13T11:52:00.000+08:00

Sheils sent me a very interesting SMS yesterday:
"Describe me in ONE WORD, just one! Send it to me then send this msg to 10 friends & see how many wonderful / strange things people think about u! Do reply... it's fun!"

Ooh la laaa.. FUN indeed!!

I sent out to a number of people (hahaha, more than 10, definitely!).. and some of the replies I got back were indeed strange :P

In no particular order, this is what I found out about me...:
- nice
- worthy
- sweet
- cute
- yummy (I'm still waiting for that someone to explain what he meant by this. KIV until after Raya ;D)
- funny
- horny (from an even hornier person. Aiyoh what did this person see in me that prompted this description, I wonder :P)
- bubbly
- cheerful
- un-sangka-able (this from my dear Uncle.. hahaha!)
- chocfudge (like the biscuit, kejap ada kejap takde. LOLs!)

The most interesting definition I got was "YAMM".
So I asked her, what is that supposed to mean?
Replied: "Everything and undefineable."
Hehhehe...

* * *

So.. I'm passing this torch to you who's reading this:
"Describe me in ONE WORD, just one!" (OK, OK. I know most of you have never met me personally.. but what the heck. Just go ahead and describe la... :D )

And then.. go ahead and spread this around. SMS pun boleh (actually SMS is more fun I think), email also can. Hehe.. Or be like me, use your blog!

You'll be grinning away the whole day, I tell you!

First weekend of Ramadhan

2005-10-09T20:55:00.000+08:00

First weekend of Ramadhan came and went without much to highlight. Yesterday was a working Saturday, and I practically had to drag myself out of the house. Hehe..
I wonder if they are ever going to grant Saturdays off at my workplace.

Sort of made plan to have late, late supper with a friend last night (Saturday). He said he was to call me if 'jadi', so I didn't worry much when I dozed off around 9pm++
Woke up around 12.30midnight to see his SMS, saying he had to cancel supper (eh, cancel ke postpone? :P).

Today, hmm.. basuh curtains. LOLs..
Which reminds me, another set of curtains need to be sent to the laundry. I think I'll wait for the curtains washed today to be nicely crisp and dry before taking down the other set.

* * *

I have to reserve a weekend for buka puasa with the extended family (i.e Mak Ton & her family, Uncle Sam, Uncle Ed, and maybe Mak Teh & family, also Keir).

Next weekend, Saturday the 15th I've been booked with The Girls. Plus a sleepover. And maybe 16th I'll be breaking fast with Joy, Ta, Along and a bunch of the secondary schoolgirls, some I haven't seen since I was 18. OMG.. that's ages ago. Wonder how they look like now...

Ehh, I only have 2 weekends left before Raya comes along.
Alamak! Bila mau buat ni? Hmm..

* * *

I think I'll suggest Saturday 22nd to Mak Abah la. Or maybe that Sunday 23rd. I know we'll soon need to make the annual "Roti Kentang" hehe.. Abah has been asking for it since the first of Ramadhan.

Ramadhan al-Mubarak!

2005-10-05T09:05:00.000+08:00

To everyone reading,

Let's welcome Ramadhan al-Mubarak.
Selamat berpuasa, and selamat beribadah in this holy month.

Love,
Yam

More than just talking

2005-10-04T12:57:00.000+08:00

I'm not a very good conversationalist.

I know I express myself better through writing, rather than verbally. When hanging out with friends, I'd rarely be the one telling the stories - more likely I'll be the one listening to everyone else's updates. When it comes to my turn to open my mouth, trust me it's gonna be a very brief session :P

Which probably explains why I'm more comfortable with non-verbal medium of communications..
Instant Messaging, be it at home (faithful YM), or at work (MSN Messenger. I think Anne must be grinning reading this hehe)..
And SMS (yes, my phone bills can bear witness - my SMS charges normally exceed my calls.. hmm always more than 600 SMS's sent every month.. and these are not busy months like Puasa or Raya time. Hmm.. who do I send SMS's to ek? I wonder...)
And of course emails..
And yes, now my blog hehe..

I remember many times in Newcastle, I would be at home using the PC. Erm, and of course get online too. Sheila would be at the University, working + being online.

And we would chat through IRC. Non stop..!
As if lah we don't talk enough at home LOLs..
She would tell me about the people she sees in the computer lab. I would ramble on about what's on TV. Or whatever else that crosses our minds.

Abah found this out when he was there (Abah, Mak & Ya came to Newcastle to attend my graduation, sometime in July 1999).
Until today Abah still expresses his disbelief: "Yam kat rumah. Sheila kat Uni. You're both housemates. And YET you two still chat online with each other. Why can't you just borak-borak at home?"

Hahahah.. I still don't know how to answer that. Most of the times I'd go: "It's not the same, Bah.."

* * *

I've been using this blog to express myself. To share the stories of my life. To let out my thoughts, and experiences, and feelings. Lepas tension pun banyak gak. :P

Mel recently agreed that I do write better than I talk - and sometimes that could cause herself (and the other Girls too) to not quite understand what's actually going on with me. Well, unless they read the blog, that is. Hehehhe.. even then, I know sometimes the posts here pun can be rather vague. Would rather not to letak names here, eh?

At work, sometimes even at the most busiest, I'd be tempted to send IM to Anne. Or Jikin. Or Al. Or BK. Hahaha.. If 2-3 days go by without me "talking" to either Anne, BK or Al, it's gonna feel weird.
Earlier today, Anne had to "listen" to me rambling on and on about someone frustrating. (Hiihih.. TQ! I owe you big time..)
Thank goodness for these conversations. They keep me sane!

I think last time when Shars was around, we used to email each other A LOT - especially when we're pissed off with some people around here. And, she used to sit just next to me! Hahhahahaha...!!

Yeah yeah, I'm a gone case.. LOLs!

* * *

Anyway, I need to brush up my conversation skills, I think. How lah to get through a date if I mostly keep quiet, and let him do most of the talking?

Errr.. not that I'm going on a date anytime soon....

First Cut Is The Deepest

2005-09-29T18:28:00.000+08:00

Watched One Tree Hill last night.
Fell in love with this song, sung by the wonderful Sheryl Crow.

* * *
First Cut Is The Deepest - Sheryl Crow

I would've given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein' lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin me, he's worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure gonna give you a try
Cause if you want I'll try to love again (tryy)
Baby I'll try to love again but I know (o-oh)

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein' lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin' me, he's worst
(Guitar solo)

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
Cause if you want I'll try to love again (try to love again)
Baby I'll try to love again but I know (o-o-oh)

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin me he's worst(o-o-oh)

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
Try to love again

* * *

Now I cannot get the chorus out of my head...

You sweet talker you!

2005-09-29T14:36:00.000+08:00

Found this quiz on Blogthings. hehe...

Your Seduction Style: Sweet Talker

Your seduction technique can be summed up with "charm"
You know that if you have the chance to talk to someone...
Well, you won't be talking for long! ;-)

You're great at telling potential lovers what they want to hear.
Partially, because you're a great reflective listener and good at complementing.
The other part of your formula? Focusing your conversation completely on the other person.

Your "sweet talking" ways have taken you far in romance - and in life.
You can finess your way through any difficult situation, with a smile on your face.
Speeding tickets, job interviews... bring it on! You truly live a *charmed life*

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

(What are you waiting for? Take the test!)

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Macam real jer.. hahahhahah!

Anyone who knows me will know better.

I'm no sweet talker, kan? Kan?

Oii! I'm NOT laaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!

Helppp!!

2005-09-27T16:52:00.000+08:00

HELPPPP...!!

I got the song Da'Bomb by Ruffedge stuck in my head!

"Cantik, menarik, tertarik, kau memang da'bomb"

I think I'm losing it.